Prior Knowledge: Falling for my

40.

Jacob

"Wait...." Chresanto scooted himself closer to the window. "Why a break?" He asked with a little shock in his eyes. I know he was feeling some type if way because I'm sitting here asking him to tell his sister I'm breaking up with her.

"Just until I'm out-"

"I don't blame you and I'm somewhat on your side, but she loves you, Man. Don't do this to her..." He cut me off.

"I know she loves me, and I love her twice as much... I'm just doing this so she doesn't have to stay on lock from the world!" I quietly yelled, then there was a brief silence. I gathered myself together to continue.

"7 years is a long time. Don't you think that within those 7 years she could find a guy that's way better than me, which is likely to happen Since she's still young! I can't have her right now, so I don't wanna be with her until I can have her with no problem. I'm only doing this for her to have a happy life and find a guy who can accept her and my kids while I'm gone."

A tear slowly strolled down my face as I tilted my head down. "I'd do anything to be with her, but sadly I can't Right now..."

Chresanto slouched back in his chair again, rubbing his head with a confused expression on his face. He scrunched his eyebrows then said "This is crazy.... How am I gonna explain to her?"

"Maybe I should Man up and tell her myself..." I suggested.

"Jacob, that's stupid." he rolled his eyes.

"Not in person, dumb ass. Over the phone."

"Wow... I Really can't believe You're doing this..."

"Only because I love her..."

"Tough love..." He mumbled. There was then another moment if silence as the tension between us grew a little.

"Do you want the rest if these pictures?" He slid them through the slot.

"Of course." I said. I didn't hesitate to take the pictures knowing that these will be just the small glimpses I will have into my children's lives.

I hate that things have to be like this, but it's for the best. Brittny is beautiful, smart, and young. I want her experience her teenage years as a teenager, Not a mother of three whose waiting on the arrival of her children's father. It hurt me deeply, but I hope she'll understand that I only did it for us.

Me and Chresanto talked a little longer until his visit came to a close. We said our goodbyes then a guard came and cuffed me to escort me back to my cell. As I walked back to my cell, I thought long and hard about the decision I just made. I know it would be a devastation to Brittny. We haven't heard each others voices in over a year, so me calling her to break up with her is like a slap in the face. I just want her to understand that I love her and I want her Happy.

Brittny

"I swear You're the most Retarded driver ever." I scoffed at Diggy. I pretty much hated driving with Him. It's always a scare driving to school with him Every morning.

"Well, too bad. Is there another choice? Because the bus is always available..." He shrugged.

I playfully slapped his arm.

"You're getting a little too comfortable with hitting me!" he laughed.

"I'm surprised you haven't gotten use to it..." I smirked then put my gaze to the window.

Mornings with Diggy are always fun, to be honest. We're Either bumping to a loud 2 chainz song on the way there or Just having crazy small talk. Talks with Diggy have became less awkward since last year. Of course there are those awkward silences sometimes, but doesn't that happen with everyone? But let me not sugar-coat our relationship. Though we are just friends, I still sense that Diggy has some sort of attraction to me. I honestly do also. Don't get me wrong, Diggy is still a fine young man. And I'm still young myself, so my hormones are off the charts. Especially after giving birth.