You Did This

Chapter Twelve

~Johnson's POV~

"NO KAIN!!!!" I heard Dash scream so I ran into the room to see the worst thing possible. Kian's heart monitor is flat lined. "DOCTOR!" I screamed and a handful of doctors and nurses ran in and kicked us out. "I didn't get to tell him we're having a boy." Dash sobbed into my chest. The doctors have been in there for an hour, until Dr.Wesley walks out and she has a sympathetic look on her face. "We've done all we can, He took some serious impact. I'm sorry Miss Maloley, but Kian has passed." She screams a spine shrilling scream, She's the most hurt out of us all. "Can we say our good byes?" Sam asked sniffling. Dr.Wesley nodded and Gilinsky and I had to help Dash up, and help her walk. "Call the guys here, now. I want to serenade him one last time." I nod and phone everyone, they showed up after 20 minutes.

~Dash's POV~

"You guys, can we sing far away for Kian?" I ask still sobbing my eyes out. They all nod and Shawn starts to strum his guitar.

"This time, this place, misused, mistakes

Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you, I've loved you all along
And I forgive you, for being away for far too long
So keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go"

Maze, Rylee and I all sang in a perfect harmony. I just lost the love of my life.We've all said our final good-byes, except for me. "Baby, I know you've passed away, but I know you're looking over me and I believe you can still hear me. I'm not saying Good-bye, I'm saying see you later. By the way baby, We're having a baby boy." I smile and kiss his lips one last time. His lips were cold and lifeless, I hated this, I hated everything now. Our son is going to grow up without their daddy. "Dash?" I hold up one finger to Johnson indicating I need one more minute. He waits there for me. "I promise you, I'll do everything in my power so that our baby boy grows up at least with his biological mother. I'll see you later Baby, Rest in peace. I love you Kian Lawley."

Johnson wrapped his arm around me and walked me out to the waiting room to meet up with Gilinsky, Jc, and Sam. Jc and Sam were a wreck, just like me. I ran and engulfed them into a hug. "I know how close you guys were, We'll get through this. But something good has come from this." I weakly smiled. "WHAT GOOD COULD COME FROM MY BEST FRIENDS DEATH DASH!?" Jc screamed at me. I backed away slowly as tears started to fall. "Dash, no- I'm sorry, Please. I can't lose you too." I clung to Johnson, Jc has never screamed at me before, so yeah I was terrified. Johnson lifted me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. "You need to chill Justin, You're not the only one who lost Kian, She just lost the father of her fucking baby." Gilinsky says to Jc, and I can see shock consume his face.

~1 week later~

It's been one miserable week with out Kian. Johnson, Nate, Sam, Gilinsky, Jc, and Maze have been by my side through it all. The rest of the guys have been too, But Johnson, Nate, Sam, Gilinsky, and Maze have been there the most. They found the guy who killed the love of my life, He was of course Intoxicated. He was sentenced to life for murder. Today is the day we put Kian to rest, He deserves to still be alive, seeing his own child grow and learn each day. I have been eating, I can't take losing anymore of my family. I'm going to give a speech at Kian's funeral today, then sing. "Baby girl, it's time to start getting ready." Johnson says peeking his head through my door. I nod. "Yeah, Okay." I'm not even going to bother hiding my depression from my family. It isn't good for my baby, or me.

I got dressed in a mid thigh dress, with thigh high socks, heels, a flower crown, and then did my hair and make-up. Maze got dressed in a black halter top, black high waisted shorts, black thigh high socks, and black platform vans. Ryle did the same, Black halter, high waisted shorts, black wedges, black flower crown and put her hair in a messy yet perfect bun(Outfits Above). "Girls, Limo is here!" Gilinsky calls to us. "We're coming!" I shout and we walk down stairs.

~Skip the car ride~

We're at his grave site, and it's all too real. The funeral was beginning Sammy, Nate, Nash, Hayes, Cameron, Matt, Taylor, Aaron, Carter, Shawn, Grayson, Ethan, Rylee, Maze, Gilinsky, Johnson, Me, Jc, Ricky, Connor, Dommy, and Sam sat in the front in that exct order. I held onto Jc's hand and Johnson's hand. "Today we are here today to celebrate the life of Kian Lawley." Jc and I cry together. Jc and I have became close, he's now a brother to me. Well all the boys are like brothers to me, But Jc is more so now. "We have some lovely people here to say some last words for Kian." Jc went up, then Sam, Connor, Ricky, Dommy, then me.

"A week ago, we lost a precious soul, but nearly four months ago, we gained another. Kian hasn't completely left us, He has left a piece of him behind. Kian was so full of life, he was up for anything. He was energetic, weird, funny, sweet, loving, kind, caring, but most importantly, he was and still is the father of my child." The crowd gasps. "Kian gave me something so precious, I can't thank him enough. I had never planned for his future to end so suddenly. I am Kians rock, and he is mine. I refuse to say good-bye, because someday in the future we will meet again, pain free. Kian was the love of my life, I can only hope I was his." I begin to cry as some of the people in the crowd "I was just about to tell Kian the gender of our baby when he flat lined, It was the worst and best day of my life. Kian is life changing, he's changed my life for the best, and now the worst. I will be with out my other half, But like I've said before, he has left me with something so precious, and fragile. Kian Lawley has left me with a piece of him. A baby boy, Blaze Kian Lawley. I will now sing 'A Thousand Years' to serenade the love of my life.one. last. time."

~2 Months later~

Today I am six months pregnant, Johnson has been by my side the whole way. Johnson and I started dating a week ago. I feel that Kian would want me to move on so Blaze can have a daddy in his life. "Babe, can we go baby shopping?" Johnson nods and we head out. I've already gotten some Magcon merchandise, baby sized for Blaze. Matt got Blaze some Matt beanies and Khaki shorts along with Vans, Taylor got Blaze Tye-dye Taylor Caniff muscle tanks, and a lot of bandanna's. Jack and Jack got him a wild life pull over hoodie, Nate got him a ton of skate maloley clothing, Cameron got Blaze a ton of vans, Nash got Blaze 'Uncle Nashty' muscle tees, and Hayes did the same. Ethan and Grayson got Blaze a onesie that said 'Dolan Twin Tuesday' Sammy got Blaze khaki shorts, short sleeve shirts that say 'Wilk's #1 Homie' and original adidas, Aaron got Blaze furniture, which meant the world to me, Carter got Blaze shirts that say 'Cartah Stahp, and 'PUMA' and the O2L family got him mini outfits of them, and a ton of ones that matched Kian.

"NATHAN!" I call out. He jogs to the living room. "Sup baby sis?" "Johnson and I are going baby shopping." He nods and kisses me on my head. "Please be safe." I nod and we head out. We get into Johnson's truck so we have more room for the high chair, and play pen and stuff like that.

~Johnson's POV~

I've been with Dash for a week and it's been amazing. No I'm not a 'replacement' for Kian. Dash and I are out at 'Babies R Us' to get Blaze a high chair, a play pen, a bouncer, and baby clothes that aren't Magcon merchandise. "Oh my god!" Dash cries out, but in excitement? "What, baby, are you okay?!" She giggles and grabs my hand and places it on her stomach. "He's kicking!" I call out, Dash nods and I kiss her on her lips. "I love you Baby. I can't thank you enough for being by my side for the past 6 months." I smile widely and walk hand in hand with her to the clothes section. "Me being able to raise Blaze with you is thanks enough baby."