A Racer's Heart

14: Better Than Dalia

Mattie's POV:

Wtf.
I don't know how to respond...
I'm dating Dalia!
But she's better than Dalia.
As she kissed me, I kissed her back.
But... what about Dalia?
Sasha brought you flowers, chocolate, and a card. And she pays attention, although she kind of messed up...
I ignored my conscience and kissed her deeper, my hands on her neck and arm.
What are you doing?
I tried hard to ignore it.
What about Star and Dalia?
I stopped for a second, but immediately kept kissing Sasha. I can't explain it-- it was like my life depended on it.
And if she had done this yesterday, I wouldn't have tried to end it.
I found myself melting in her kiss and my heart raced. I didn't understand what she was doing or why but I couldn't stop.
The machine monitoring my heart rate beeped slightly faster and I smiled.
She made me smile.
The last time I smiled was with--
Dalia... what am I going to do?
I pulled back from Sasha.
"S-Sasha, not that I don't, um, like you, but... What about Dalia and Star? And... yesterday, you- what you said- I just don't know..."

She sighs and puts her head on my stomach. "I didn't mean it, i-i just needed a distraction from you."

I blush. "S-so, you were only saying it to keep yourself with her?" I gulped. "And ... what are you gonna do with her?"

She groans. "No i was only saying it to keep myself away from you. You had Dalia and overtime i knew i needed to get over you even if i felt electricity to myself."

I turned more pink and fiddled with one of the tubes attached to my arm.

"W-why? I'm nothing special. I was supposed to..." I trail off, not finishing the thought with die yesterday."And... if you liked me and didn't like me with Dalia, you should have told me..."

"Right like I'm just going to go up to the hot ass new girl and be like i like you and i don't want you to go with Dalia." She shakes her head on my stomach. "I wouldn't do that to you." She says so low i could barely hear her. "I- i just want you to be happy, and since you looked happy with Dalia i wasn't going to interrupt."

I stare at her, my blush having finally gone down before spiking up.
"Y-you think I'm hot? And dude, it doesn't matter if I 'looked happy' with Dalia, obviously I'd be happier with you."

I almost kiss her but ask first, "But what about Star?"

"A distraction." Is all she says before her lips find their way back to mine.