Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Chapter 12

Alex's POV:

I was driving to Tobin's place after I got a call from Ashlyn I don't know what happened but I know it's not good. Tobin's parents left this morning to go on a business trip, I'm really worried right now because if something happened to them I don't know what Tobin is going to do because she has no one else, we have no one else.

I pulled into the driveway and jump out of the car and run in the house. I leave the car on the door open I have no care in the world at this moment except for my baby girl.

"What the hell happened" I say upset to Ashlyn.

"It's her parents the plane crashed and they didn't survive" Ashlyn says getting emotional.

I'm crying by now and my emotions are everywhere. "Where is she?" I practically yell at Ashlyn.

"She is in her bathroom, upstairs." She tells me and I take off up the stairs.

I get to the door and I knock , no answer.

"Tobin?" I say through the door. I know something is up when she doesn't answer and I just say forget it and go through the door. She is laying the floor with her knife in her hand a her wrist cut I pick her up and carry her to the bed and lay her down.

"Baby stay with me!!" I say through my tears and I yell at Ashlyn to call an ambulance. 

I sit there beside her, until the ambulance arrives, and I go with her to the hospital. They take her straight back and I could go with her I sat down in the chair, and just wait and wait until my phone goes off and I look at the text

Serv: Hey lex I miss you so much I want to come see you.

I have no idea what to say to him my girlfriend is in the hospital my emotions are everywhere and I can't believe he just texted me that.

Alex: I don't have time for this right now.

He didn't respond, and the next thing I know I see Syd and Dom walk in and Serv follows closely behind. I was speechless and I can't believe my girlfriend is in the hospital I just want her to be okay. I know losing your only family you have ever had is super hard. I lost them too they took me in when I had issues with my father and I can't lose Tobin too.

She finally comes out of surgery and she's in her own room. The doctor just now let me go in to see her and I had her a big teddy bear that said "I'm yours on it." I walk in and she is staring out the window. "Hey baby," I say softly getting her attention.  "Hey..." She says sound upset. I hand her the teddy bear and she looked at it and threw it. "What was that for?" I ask kinda upset. " I don't want fucking gifts I don't want to see anyone I just want to die. I have no one my parents are gone, I have lost everything and I'm done get the fuck out Alex!!" She screams at me. I start to cry and as I was walking out she was crying to and whispers "why couldn't you of just left me there to die?" I turn around and look at her and say softly, " because I'm in love with you Tobin Powell Heath" I turn and walk out.  I had to get out of there I take off running and I don't stop until I get to the soccer field and get out the soccer balls and take shot after shot to try to get the pain to fad away. I can't lose her she is my everything thing she is my world and I would do anything for her.

I finally can't do it anymore I drop to the ground and lay there and cry. I don't know how long I was there or anything I'm so hurt I just can't anymore.

"Hey Lex." A familiar voice says.

I look up and it's Servando, I was speechless. "What's up Serv?" I asked.

"I came to see if you were okay you seemed upset when you left the hospital." He said seeming sincere.

"That's bullshit all you want and all you have ever wanted was to get in my pants and then go tell everyone about it!" I yelled at him.

"Yeah Alex maybe in the beginning, but not now I want you! Please give me another chance!" Servando said sounding sincere.

"I can't do this right now! The woman I love is in the hospital! Why do you have to have such horrible time! You need to leave right now! Goodbye Serv!" I yelled at him

He walks off and gets in his car and speeds off in his mustang.

I get up of the ground and slowly start making my way back to the hospital my clothes still covered in Tobin's blood. As I walk I keep asking myself why, why now, why to us. We were so happy now we're falling apart. I just want to be able to hold her in my arms.

I can't bring myself to go back in the hospital. Servando pulls back into the parking lot. Walk to his car open the door and get in.

"Take me to Tobin's please I need to shower and I can't go back in there right now" I say to him

He gives me that famous smirk and starts to drive off.

We pull in to Tobin's drive way a few minutes later and I go straight to the liquor cabinet and grabbed the bottle of Jack Daniel and chug it straight from the bottle. I grad stuff to go clean the blood off of the bathroom and take the bottle with me. I sit down in the floor beside her blood and just cried I put the bottle to my lips and just drank till I couldn't hear the words "Alex get the fuck out" I whipped the blood up and stripped down to nothing and got in the shower I just let the water rush over my body.

I get out of the shower and put on a pair of Tobin's boxers and unc basketball shorts and I grabbed her favorite unc hoodie and put it on it still smells like her.

I walked down stairs with the bottle still in my hand even though it's basically empty now I sit down on the bar stool next to the island in the kitchen pulling out a cup and poring the rest of the bottle in the cup. I can hardly hold my head up. I finish my cup of jack and start walking up the stairs and start to fall back down and Serv catches me he carries me up the stairs lays me down on the bed and pulls his shirt of and starts kissing me.

Next Morning

I wake up with a pounding headache and I'm laying naked in bed with Servando

All I can think is what the hell did I just do