2 weeks later
As I stood in front of the church staring at the casket that was my moms final home here on earth. I tuned out as I sat down and watched as the preacher preached things about my mom that I didn't even give a damn about. I just wanted my mom back, what the hell was I supposed to do from here. I sat there while people talked about my mom that was never there when she was living. I went through the emotions and motions that a young girl could go through after losing her mother. I watched as they lowered my mothers body into the ground. I just stood there well after everyone had left to go back to the church. "You really miss her don't you" someone asked me. I turned around to find a tall handsome man that looked to be mixed with a little of everything because he had the long hair, the color changing eyes, the big but broad nose, full thick lips,and high cheekbones. Man just looking at him had me feeling some type of way that I wasn't so sure about yet. "My name's Roman but everyone calls me Rome or Lil Red" he said laughing. "My name's Keenea but everyone calls be Faith or Baby and on occasions Ktown" I said taking the hand he offered. "You really miss her don't you your mom right" he asked. "Yeah I do even though I really didn't have her there everyday it was still good to know she was there when I needed her. She was just a short bus ride away" I said as the tears started to fall again this time I didn't care who seen them I was upset and I felt everyone should know. "Don't cry it's gone be aight. She wouldn't want you to sit here and waste tears on something you couldn't control. You're to pretty to be crying your making your eyes and nose swollen" he said handing me some tissue that he pulled from his jacket. He walked me back to the church where everyone was standing around enjoying themselves I smiled for the first time in two weeks. "Hey Faith come on over here" I heard Ray yell as he walked towards me. As he got closer I could've sworn I seen his smile drop when he realized I wasn't alone. "Ray this is Roman, Roman this is Ray. Did you want to say something Ray I was just finna go see my dad" I said holding Rome's arm. As I said that Rome looked down at me with a questioning stare on his face knowing what I was trying to do. "Yeah well ok just wanted to make sure you were alright you know. You didn't look so good in there" Ray said. "Yeah well I just lost my mom I didn't think I was supposed to try and hide my emotions" I said as I started to walk away pulling Rome along with me. I led him to the sanctuary where I knew it was quite. I sat down in the back and pulled out my iPhone and headphones as I slipped them on as Rome sat down next to me and did the same. I watched him watch me as he put in his code than turn it off than repeat the process of unlocking than locking it back. He pulled one of my earbuds out and put it in his ear. "Can you put the right code in" he asked handing me his phone. I wasn't sure what he was trying to prove he just basically put the code in like 20 times. "I guess why can't you do it yourself" I said taking the phone from his outstretched hand. While I started to unlock it he started laughing. "I guess you don't miss what's going on around you. That code was the most complicated ass password I've ever used, how did you do that" he asked. From the way he was looking at me made me laugh because he looked so curious but serious at the same time. "Its really simple I guess I just watch closely you could've done it once and I would have gotten it. It's a gift that I actually enjoy using" I said clicking his picture app. "Hey you may not want to go through those" he said closing the app. "It couldn't be that bad it's in your phone for pete sake, and plus you couldn't possibly have anything I haven't seen before" I said opening it back up and scrolling through them. They were the usual male pictures of themselves, their friends, a few females naked and clothed, than there were pictures of his abs which looked good and a couple of pictures of his dick which was a nice size, I cocked my head to make sure I was looking at it correctly but I was which made my heart skip a couple of beats. "Damn I wouldn't mind seeing that in person" I said smiling. "What you say" he asked lifting his head up from the music on my phone. "Nothing nothing at all" I said scolding myself for talking out loud. I finished looking through them and closed the app still thinking about what this nigga was packing in them jeans of his. I shook the image out if my head because I knew it was the wrong type of thoughts to be having in the church sanctuary especially with a man I just met nor even an hour ago. While we sat there not talking just enjoying each others company music from the church's dining hall could be heard, as I tried to ignore it Roman starting pulling me up from the seat talking about lets dance. "I can't dance I really don't know how" I told him trying to pull him back into the seat. "Come on I'll teach you it's easy just follow the directions of the song. Don't you know this song it's really famous" he said. "No I don't know this song I've never really listened to a lot of music before I came to live with my dad" I told him feeling like a kid the teacher was looking at for knowing how to walk in a straight line. I pulled my hand from his and sat down feeling really embarrassed now that I didn't know how dance nor did I know the song that was playing. When I looked up at him he was just laughing. "Well damn I didn't know it was that damn funny" I said getting louder now that he was laughing at me. "I ain't mean it like that I was just laughing because I've never heard of someone saying they never really listened to music before now. That's a little hard to believe not even the little nursery rhymes that the kids sang on the street" he said making it seem like I was a lost cause that he wanted to figure out and quick to. "Yeah I heard those I just never really listened to the other music I mean even the music that's on my phone my dad put those on there when he saw that I had no music and didn't really know any others than the few" I told him. "Well anyways back to the song it's called Step in the Name of Love it's a stepping song. Please don't tell me you don't know how to do that little dance neither it's simple just step step..." he started but I cut him off before he could even go any further. "Look I don't really want to learn how to dance ok." I tried to walk away but he grabbed my arm and yanked me back towards him. "Wow what was up with people grabbing my arm lately is it my most attractive limb or something" I asked while I pulled my arm free. "No I wouldn't say so I think you have other attractive limbs to like your legs, your breast, your ass, and definitely your face" he said sounding so cute but even I knew he wasn't logically correct. "You know that only one of those are limbs right but thank you for the compliment it was nice" I said while smiling feeling the heat from within just rise up until it was in the pit my chest. Oh man what the hell was wrong with me just the right words was making me feel some type of way and I did not like not one bit, what the hell happened to me keeping my guard up maybe it was just because I hadn't found anyone to actually show me that genuine affection before, but maybe that all will change because I plan to get a catch on this one and hold tight.
