Trust one more time

I want you to stay

I can't remember when it was the last time when I was this happy, I felt loved and wanted, not a day passed and Daniel didn't  prove to me how sorry he was, how much he wanted to be part of my family. He slowly broke every wall I built around my heart, but still there was one that I resisted to let it fall.

I can't let him again in my heart, I'm afraid of the hurt that I will feel if something went wrong. And I just feel that something has to happen. I know to well his mother.

I know that I'm hurting him, I can see it in his eyes every time I don't offer him to stay the night, every time he says 'I love you' and I don't reply, I want, I really want to trust him again but every time I want to take this step my fear stops me.

Three months passed, and Daniel still like a lost puppy came every day to my house, and stay late hoping that I will change my mind and offer him to stay.

Even if I didn't let him stay even if I didn't say ' I love you' back I still waited for him, prepared dinner and hoped that he will push me to my limits, but he was afraid too, that I will run away.

But tonight he didn't come, I waited for him but he never showed up. He disappeared for a week, and now I was beyond worried. I called him but it always went to voicemail, now I realized how much I wanted him to be near me. And I don't want to live in what if...

I went to his office, and found him working in his office. He didn't notice me, he was so focused on the documents in his hands that it gave me the opportunity to look at him. He was tired he had black circles under his eyes his posture was tense.

It was as if my body had a mind of his own I came closer and hugged him, he tensed and then when he heard my voice he lined closer to me and closed his eyes. I kissed his head and whispered "let's go home".

He opened his eyes slowly and whispered back " please say it again"

"Let's go home"

"You can't imagine how happy I am now."

We went home, it was so naturally, that I can't even imagine that it's for the first time, to hell revenge I want to take the risk again.

" Go take a shower, I will make you a dinner, I bet you are hungry". But he didn't move, he looked at me like I'm an alien.

"What does it mean?" He asked me, even if I know what he's meaning I played dump

"What are you talking about"

"Rose I'm talking about this, what ever it is between us, I'm ready to wait you for eternity but please, I need more than just silence"

I looked in his chocolate eyes that held mine with patient and fear. I came close and placed a kiss on his forehead and said looking deep in his eyes "I want you to stay"

He was shocked, well I was too but I think it's time to trust my heart once again. "Stay" I whispered again as he was looking at me stunned. He was about to kiss me but I pushed back "But no funny business". Well that made him laugh.

We lied close to each other, looking in each others eyes, even if it was past mid night neither one of us could sleep. He then pressed me against his body and cuddled with me, he sure still loved to cuddle. And I fall in a deep sleep.

The next morning I woke up feeling really hot, I wanted to move but was restricted. Then I remembered what happened last night and tried to turn. After ten minutes I successfully turned around and now was facing him.

He was so beautiful, I traced with my finger his eyebrow, his eyes, nose and lips trying to memorize his face. He opened his eyes " It's the best morning ever, I want to wake up and you in my arms everyday"

I giggled like a school girl and hide my face in his chest trying to hide my blush. He can still make me blush, unbelievable. And suddenly the door opens and Brayden run in and jumped on bed landing between us.

Well if it's not the heaven I don't know what it is.