Just some shitty poems❤️

Need

PLEASE DO NOT COPY THESE AS THEY ARE MEANINGFUL TO ME AND ABOUT MY PAST EXPERIENCES💞

I see the tears that fall silently down your face.
Even when you don't want them to, you can't keep them hidden.
How do you stop running after the one thing you've always chase?
How can something so desirable be so forbidden?

Your need for happiness.
To bless your life with a touch of sunshine.
What a shame that all that is consuming you is the sadness.
Taking over every inch of your body, flowing within your bloodline.

Underneath your clothes is a whole another universe.
Something that no one else can see.
Your inner thoughts immerse.
The prisoner captive within you is set free.

The touch of a blade.
Your godsend, your assist, your escape.
Everything that you once feared, now made you unafraid.
You were drowning in your thoughts but now they're pouring away.

The sight of the blood staining your body.
The deepest red flowing from the jagged wounds you'd create.
The wish to disappear from your fucked up reality.
Your skin became a masterpiece you couldn't wait to decorate.

One pill, two pills, three pills, How many more until you lose count.
Swallowing, gulping, choking.
Fading away was everything you couldn't surmount.
No hope in fixing you, you'd remain broken.

You've given up the fight.
Realised that every meaning to live no longer remains.
Everything that was wrong could never go right.
The only fragment of your memory left are the bloodstains.

You'll be someone people will forget.
The girl who wanted to die.
The one who burned cigarette after cigarette.
The existence everyone will deny.