Hungry

The Park

After a while of walking i decided id go to sleep it was probably around 2 or 3 now. I stopped on the curb to catch my breath. I didn't even purge but still a ton of blood came up, i felt sickened of myself knowing how stupid i was. I stood up and walked to a park that me and Alex always hang around ditching school and stuff when we were bored. I figured that for tonight id sleep in the tunnel slide. When i got there i wasn't tired so i decided id wait until i got tired and id just draw until then.

I was looking at my drawing without really seeing it, my mind was to far away. I suddenly heard footsteps coming into the park from behind me.  My heart raced i was terrified. Did Randy find me? Had he known i might end up here? Would Alex of told him? I felt stupid for the last question knowing she wouldn't do that, but how did he find me? The footsteps were getting closer i had a feeling he'd already spotted me. Suddenly someone came around the corner and faced me. I heard a piercing scream, then realized the sound came from me. "Whoa! What was that about?" I heard a voice say i couldn't see to well from my recent tears and also from some of my shock. But i noticed that it wasn't Randy, that wasn't his voice but i did know that voice. "Randy..." was the only thing i heard come from my mouth and it was only a whisper but i was sure if he heard me. "No," he paused, and he heard me, "Not Randy,who ever that is, its Blake" he finished i rubbed my eyes and wiped away all the tears ashamed of my crying in front of him.

It was definitely Blake, a small smile was on his face from, what i guessed was either my confusion or my embarrassment. I looked down and put away my drawing. "Shouldn't you be at home in your warm bed?" he asked gently and confused I looked at him shyly trying not to meet his eyes "i don't have a home anymore." i said as quietly as i could under my breath. He heard me. What did this kid have super hearing or something? Of course not.

"Oh. I'm sorry, i didn't mean..." i put up my hand and cut him off "its fine" his eyes went wide i hadn't noticed my hands were covered in dried blood. I wiped my face with my sleeves but i didn't even think about my hands. I hid my hand in my sleeve. He looked down guessing opposite of what happened i assumed. He must think i cut myself and let it stay that way, yeah right. "That's not what you think..." this time he stopped me his next words surprised me. "Its why you don't have a home isn't it?" he paused "stand up, please." he said I was hesitant and then followed my order. He looked quickly at my shirt and jeans and back to my face. I wasn't exactly sure what he was looking for.

"Okay you can sit." he looked at the ground uncomfortably while i sat back down, then he joined me keeping his distance. "My uncle..." he trailed off, voice breaking "Had done it for so long to me and my mother." he stopped again "He was taking care of us when my dad died. He just had a different meaning of it." He looked at me i seen so much pain in his eyes. It made me sad but i couldn't take my eyes off of his. He started back up, "My uncle was cruel, rapped my mom and little sister..." He choked up, and i could imagine why. i felt horrible for crying over myself when he was proof that it gets so much worse.

"I'm so..." He stopped me again "Its fine, you couldn't possibly have known that." He gave my a small sad smile, then his eyes turned curious. "Where were you planning to sleep tonight?" he was completely focused on my answer like it was a life or death decision. I frowned remembering my plan, "Probably in that tunnel slide." i said looking over at it, he followed my gaze and we turned to face each other again. "No." he said i was confused what did he mean no? He cant really decide where I'm sleeping, and its not like i had anywhere else i thought to myself.

"What?" i said still confused He sighed "I mean no your not sleeping there." he said exasperated "I'm sorry, but why?" i said surprised by the bit of anger in my voice. He ignored it but answered my question. "You cant its supposed to rain later and its going to be really uncomfortable and we have school tomorrow, so if you planned to show up, then you'd be a twisted up and hurt." He said with care and honesty.He was right i couldn't sleep there i figured, but where would i sleep?