Hungry

Blakes Apartment

I looked at the ground while the realization of everything hit me. I had no where to sleep. Everything hurt. My throat burned on the inside and just hurt on the outside. And i was hungry. Very hungry. It was so hard to push it away finally i pushed it to the side to think of other things, it would work for awhile. I finally looked up at him, i think he caught my moment of weakness, of hunger. I was suddenly ashamed and looked away quickly. He finally spoke and feared what his words would be. "You can stay with me, my mom wont mind," his mom. where was my mom? oh yeah she left me, not caring that i would be the one and only target of my fathers eye. "And are you okay?" damnit i knew he'd say something.

"Yeah I'm fine why? and that'd be great thank you so much." i said it a quickly and hoped he would be like everyone else and only respond the the end.  Nope. "No problem. And well" he paused, what was he thinking?!  "You just look like your going to cry." that wasn't it, i could see it, and i could hear it. That wasn't what he wanted to say, he was hiding something, but what? cause that was not what he was thinking i know it. Damn. What was it?! i had to answer so i gave him a quick and easy lie, "No I'm fine, just tired. It's alright."

"Okay are you hungry?" Yes,yes,yes. "No I'm not hungry." i answered to quickly, he's going to notice. He's going to realize I'm lying. "Are you sure you could eat, its alright." yeah, no, not that easy. "No its alright I'm just tired I'm fine." i was tired but i wanted to run, far away, to get away from my house, to run from everything, and hey id lose weight and be skinnier. Pretty. "Okay we'll one step at a time i guess." he said what did that mean? Does he know? "We'd better get going. Fallow me."  i did. We walked the whole way but i wanted to run, still. And i couldn't stop thinking about what he was hiding. What could it be?

"We don't live that far, just in the apartments i know there kind of crappy, but were looking for a house so it'll be alright, right?" he asked like it was so horrible that he lived there "Yeah it's fine." i faked a smile as real-looking as i could manage. We finally got to the apartments and a chill ran down my spine. They were creepy looking run-down and old it gave me an odd feeling, but i brushed it off and we went inside. He was getting more and more jittery as we got closer, i wonder why. I fallowed him to the stairs, he'd told me earlier that the elevator was broken. Also that there was only to other people that lived in the whole apartment so he was kind of upset with the apartment they got, since they had to go up farther then they shouldv've had to and no one ever came to fix the elevator.

We went up to the 4th floor and down to the end of the hall where he lived. Then i seen his mom, she was pretty. Even with her tangled messed up blonde hair, shaking hands, and the crazed look in her green eyes she was beautiful. "What's going on Blake?" she asked her voice was shaky "Can she stay? she has no where to go, she was about to sleep in the tunnel slide at the park. please?" Blake said "Yeah Blake its fine hunny, just dont get to loud alright? I've got a headach and i want some sleep." She's actually really nice "Alright thanks mom." So, now i spending the night at Blakes, when i woke up this morning i might laugh at that idea. Well no, maybe i wouldnt find it so hard to believe, but i definatly wouldn't expect it.