Hello~
Sorry for my english and spelling again ,
Still i Hope u enjoy this chap.
Joana POV
I didnt sleep well, because of that fucking words continue repeating on my mind-_- great, i have my sched today for photoshoot with baekhyun,chanyeol,kai,D.o and yeah SEHUN the other is have their radio sched with kim ryeowook ughh i miss my super junior oppas i didnt have any free time to visit them .
I stood up and do my daily morning routine i check on my watch great its 6am i didnt sleep well, im just had a napped thats all -_- im really super tired like i just want to sleep the whole day -_-
I wore a dress and i curled the end of my hair then headed to the kitchen to prepared breakfast ...
They all wake up except sehun gosh where he is ??? The boys sat down on the table that i prepared "yah.! Joana you look pale you didnt get enough sleep???" Krystal asked in concern tone "im fine krystal, just i little bit dizzy" i said in calm tone i saw all of them so worried , wow so great oppas then i notice sehun walked out to his room , i stared at him but he look away like he didnt saw me GOSH why? Did i do something wrong .... gosh-_- Are u ignoring me now??? OH SEHUN -_-
I stood up to go back to our room(krystal and joana's room) becoz my heart break like a glass now ...... ohhh nooo WHAT THE FUCK I FELT NOW????????? becoz u like him u idiot...!! No im not.!!!! Yes u are.!!! No im not.!!! Yes u are...!!!!!! My thought keep arguing me -_- i saw suho oppa look so worried about me , yeah thanks for that oppa "ok guys get ready to your sched now" i heard krystal told them i just sigh ugghhh what to do now?????i freaking crazy curious on what he told me last night causing me to NOT having some good rest and sleep and now U ignored me????
GREAT-_-
*PHOTSHOOT AREA*
Before i headed to the photpshoot i went first to the bathroom GREAT I CANT HOLD MY TEARS ANYMOREEEE i cried and cried "ugggh why you ignoring me? Why sehun?? Why???" I yelled at my self at the mirror................ i think i like him... NO I LOVE HIM ....... -_- yes , sehun oppa i love u the first day when i become a fan of you i always dreaming about you that i dont know why? I feel so comfortable with you when i sees u-_- and now you here infront of me my dreams is now to be true i wiped my tears , GREAT-_- my eyes get puffey red now... I Hope they dont get notice it....-___-
I fixed my camera, then baekyeol, kaisoo and sehun oppa came out from their changing room i took a glanced to sehun but still ignoring me -_- MY GOSH OPPA U FREAKING HURTING.MY HEART ON WHAT U ACT-____-:(
I look away, to hold my tears again, gosh i dont want to cry here not infront of my oppas specially infront of OH SEHUN -___-
Sehun POV
*this morning before the sched*
I walked to my room i saw them eating breakfast, then i notice joana stared at me , gosh why did i say that things last night-_- well i just cant hold it anymore, my heart continue breaking when i saw her with suho hyung -_- but i decide to ignore her like i didnt see her , i wish this thing would work, sorry joana this is the way i can do, to forget you, i dont want to ruin things behind with you and suho hyung i know im stupid becoz i surrender without you knowing my feelingsz without making a move on you, but what if you and suho hyung have something chessy or what,..... i idont want to ruin that, i dont want to ruin your happiness , that is how much i love u whether im hurted ....
i know your happy with him...., not in me....... See? I think im not just like you but I LOVE YOU JOANA, gosh i know now, i know why those feelings i felt this past week , is becoz i like you.... No becoz I LOVE U JOANA KIM-_-
*SMENT*
After we change and now im fixing my hair , i feel a hand holding my left shoulder , i turn around to see who is it,...... "Yah.! Sehun-ah, why you ignoring joana???" Baekhyun hyung asked .
GREAT-_-
"U....uhmm nothing hyung, just im not in the mood to talk" i lied,... See? Whether my hyung didnt know how much i love her-_- he just make an 'Ohh' faced but he is not satisfied on what i answered him because krystal called us, for that photoshoot, then we walked out i saw Joana fixing her camera i stared at her she look so pale, tired and puffey red eyes causing her to even get cutier BUT WAIT???? I SHE CRIED?????? OMMOO NOoo....!! Ugggghhh my coisence eating me a lot, for not to fight for her for not to told what i feel for her that how much i love her
GREAT-.-
Joana POV
I just continue taking a photo of them they do a ramdom post baekhyun, chanyeol,kai,D.o and sehun do each a solo picture, but still sehun ignored me -_- HEART BREAK AGAIN then baekyeol, kaisoo picture then all of them....
*click click click*
After the photshoot and the radio sched we headed to the practice room and do what krystal told im a backup dancer again, well im.so tired to dance i have no appetite to get move and move and moved but still i have to do this, its my job anyways.
After we dance , the 11 boys walked out to get some food to eat.... i get some rest, but krystal and suho oppa came up to me and sat at my side "yah.! Joana why your eyes i puffy red, did you cried???" Suho oppa asked in concern tone
GREAT-_- they noticed
"No,im not , just nothing dont mind" i said in cheerfull tone , i guess i didnt hide anything from them now -_- they look at me confused , obvoiusly that they didnt believe on my excuses , "ok fine, i cried becoz he ignoring me,,,, you better?!" I said sarcasticlly "yeah, we know, krystal told me now everything how much you loved or idolized sehun" suho said in calm tone then i look to krystal... "sorry, joana i just wanted to help," she said in sad tone
"no its ok krystal, nothing to worry, i know this secret would be revealed soon, but i dont know how to faced him.." i said they patted my back "oh, its ok, well in the first maybe... but, when you guys get know more to each other, or to get close you can now tell what you feel.." Krystal said suho oppa nodd in agreement "well, i think you guys are right, but you see? He ignoring me, that makes my heart freaking crazy broke" i said "awww my super cute dongsaeng is now inlove to our evil maknae" suho said "uggghh,,, whatever oppa" i smiled "your so cute with your smile, and please dont cried again, let me handle this" suho said "aww thank you so much oppa and krystal you guys are so daebak" i said "your always welcome baby" krystal hugged me ughhh whether its embarrasing to call me baby its ok , i still love my bestfriend ^_^ after we talked... Suddenly the boys cameback with foods and drinks...
.. But where he is? Aish yeah he still ignore me -_- , please oh sehun comeback to me again im freaking crazy missing you, talk to you, play with you, have some bubble tea with you, and i love you, u stupid evil maknae-____-
Gosh!! My feeling now is weird while im writing this chap, so i hope u like it^___^
