I didn’t know how to help her. i wanted her to stop crying, i lifted her face as gentle as possible, moving her hair from her face, watching her gentle eyes pour out made me feel as soft as i ever had felt. I held her face and it felt so right.
“Faith, You don’t have to come if you don’t have to but i’ll leave and no matter what i’ll come back i promise but i want you..”
“You want me to come with you and give it a try, i know. But its scary and the only reason i came is because of.. ” She paused. Looked away from me like she said something she shouldn’t have.
I pulled her close to me again hoping she wouldn’t repent.
“because of what faith? Tell me..”
“Nothing.” She said, moving her tears away and pushing herself away from me.
It didn’t seem right, i felt so calm, relaxed having her in my arms. i didn’t want that feeling to pass away but she left my arms, waiting for her.
“Xey! I want you to go away from me now, leave me and never ever come back again.” Showing her back to me she said.
Those words broke me inside, making my heart pound giving me a feeling like I’ve lost something important to me, something meaningful and maybe i wouldn’t have her back.
“Faith why are you doing this? I wanna help both of us out. come on.”
O MY GOD! Why is it so hard to tell her? I wanna tell her, i just don’t know what to say, What if it comes out wrong?
“No xey. You don’t need to help me. I just don’t want you here anymore.”
“Why do you want me gone? i-i..”
“I can’t be any close to you. Not anymore, please Xey. LEAVE ME!”
“What is it Faith? I’m so sorry does my breathe still smell bad.”
Yes i know. Lame. But i couldn’t see her cry anymore. She started giggling and turned to me, she came close and held my face.
“Xey, i know this seems stupid but i-i”
“I love you more.”
Jesus Christ! It just came out. I didn’t mean to, i had it in me for such a long time but i just had to.
I saw the twinkle in her eyes again, the one i had seen the first day. She came close making me wrap my hand around her waist, our nose connected and she closed her eyes. And there it was, the kiss! My first one, being 17 for a first kiss is late. But i knew i wouldn’t regret this, it was special to me, it was the girl i actually had feelings for and i’d never want to leave her behind. When i was 15 it crept me the whole time, the fact that i wasn’t kissed and when i was 16 it felt like being a virgin even after being married. I can’t explain how i felt, her tender lips on mine. As our lips locked, our eyes were closed and i could see it, school, Zoey, Mom, Gorge, Mr. Field,Tents, the camp fire, the pond, Zoey’s giggles, Silent night and Faith walking in to Zedlar bringing me here. I could see it all, i remembered everything. Was it only me or did Faith see anything at all? We moved away from each other with the look of horror in our eyes.
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FantasyAlexander is a 17 year old boy who is always at home playing this video games but this summer he wants to have a change, go to camp. He finds the girl is likes but falls in love with someone else. Was it worth loving someone who doesn't exist. I was...
