RANTS AND STUFF

Realising and Accepting

Everyone LGBT+ has been there. That 'Oh no I'm insert sexuality/gender here' moment when you realise you aren't straight/cis.

For me this was when I thought I was bi. I had a crush on a guys, however I realised that girls were also cute which lead to my guess that I was bisexual.
I didn't really want to accept it though, but we'll talk about that later.
When I realised I was demigirl though... It wasn't really a huge realisation and accepting thing like my bi/pan realisation. It was more gentle. I knew for a while I wasn't fully female however I wasn't non binary and so I slipped into the demigirl category and stayed there. To be honest, I preferred that to the realisation.
I knew I was pan about a few months after guessing I was bi, however hid it because I didn't want to look like I was copying my friend, who was also pan. Remembering this makes me realise how stupid that was! I should have never felt like I was copying someone when i really wasn't! If you also feel like this or have been in a similar situation, then remind yourself that your gender and sexuality is real and you shouldn't feel like your copying someone when deep down you know you aren't.

These are the only three realisation processes I know of, and I think they are the only ones there. If you realised your gender/sexuality in a different way though, please tell me!

Then there is accepting our gender/sexuality. For being pan/bi and demigirl, I went through the same thing. I didn't fully accept my gender or sexuality at first. Looking back at it, I think it was because I was scared of how other people would react and also I was afraid that I wasn't bi/pan/demigirl and people would think I was looking for attention.

Please know that it is okay to question your gender and sexuality for a while, and you aren't faking it or looking for attention. It does take a while to get used to it, however you do and everything gets better in the end.

Anyway, just remember that there are so many sexualities and genders out there, so you can always find something if your unsure. However remember that staying unsure is okay as well.
Any stories on how you realised your sexuality/gender? And what was your reaction? Tell me!

I hope this helped!