CHANCES

PROPOSAL

Grace:
I was seating on the couch that i dont really remember when i bought but my room looks the same. I feel like im still a teenager who's ready to sneak out. Im just looking around while the others are in their rooms having some rest and i can still hear some of my brothers guests laughing and talking. My room faces the pool area and unfortunately their in the pool area. And heard my brother said "guys lower our voices muna ok? We have some other guests taking their rest eh" so sweet of my brother. Alam nyang hindi ako lalabas ng room not until safe na sa labas. Well i dont really see the point mg pagtatago ko sa kanila like im sure they'll see me tomorrow naman. But again i just dont want to spoil this event sana.

I looked at the study table across and noticed something. I went to the table and saw our pictures. There were different picture frames. One is our family picture. One is my picture when i was in college the other one is me and brian when he graduated college and other photos from my events. But there is one photo na naka tawag ng pansin ko. Nakatumba ang frame and i dont know why, well out of curiosity i get the frame and saw the photo of me and Michelle. I was shocked at that very moment. I dont know why i still have this picture. My heart felt like it stopped beating for a while then i can feel that something is about to drop from my eyes. It feels like my world stopped. It feels like yesterday. Like i dont feel anything. Then i heard someone speak and say "im sorry. Nakalimutan kong itapon or itago" then parang bumalik ako sa katinuan. I opened the cabinet underneath the table and put the frame inside. Before i turned around i wipe my eyes to make sure i dont have anything from it. And like a normal thing, ayoko magpahalatang i felt something when i saw the picture so i went straight to the walk in closet my mother designed for me. " its ok ma. Ano kaba. Matagal na yon. "  i searched for something na pwede maisuot since im here in the Philippines iba ang temperature so i need to look for a light pambahay. And my mother handed me a boxers and v neck shirt na she knows na madalas kong suotin nung bata pa ako. Napa smile ako and my mother asked " are you sure yoour ok? "  i answered right away while i undress and trying to fit the shirt and boxers she gave to me "yes ma."   I know shes worried about me. She saw me suffer with all the heart breaks i had in the past and as a mother im sure ayaw nya lang na maramdaman ko ulit yon. "Mas bagay tingnan sayo ngayon ang damit ng daddy mo unlike before halos pumutok na ang bilbil mo jan"  natawa ako sa statement nya. Naalala ko tuloy how big i was before reaching this body. My boobs were saggy, my tummy was bigger than my.booty but now girls and boys are trying to.catch me. Who wouldve thought of that huh. "Clark will be here daw later sa dinner sabi ng kapatid mo. Im sure matutuwang yun na makita ka"  right after i heard my mom said my best friend's name agad nagswitch ang mood ko . "Really? Anong oras sya darating?"  And my mom turned her back she's about to go out "mamaya pa nak, you better sleep muna im sure pagod ka sa byahe ill let you know pag andito na sya"  and bago pa sya makaalis habang nasa labas na sya ng room ko i run to her and hugged her "i miss you ma. "  i kissed her forehead.