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Self-Image

Hello friends,

Today I'd like to talk about something a little more different than my usual stuff. 

I want to talk about self image. Yes I know very serious.

let's do this.

First of all I'd like to say that I myself am not a perfect person, far from it actually. The whole idea and fact that I'm not perfect has turned into a problem. You see here according to Google self image means:

self-im·age

noun

noun: self-image; plural noun: self-images

the idea one has of one's abilities, appearance, and personality

I have tons of problems with self-image and the way i treat myself, but recently in the comments of the last part of this book i saw someone calling themselves out on the fact that 'they weigh too much' i really don't find this okay. I know for a fact that the person was probably saying that because of self-hatred and self image problems. I myself have the habit of putting my self down and love to point out my flaws. The thing is, its all in our heads and the way we think of ourselves isn't  really accurate

Self-image is the mental picture, generally of a kind that is quite resistant to change, that depicts not only details that are potentially available to objective investigation by others (height, weight, hair color, gender, I.Q. score, etc.), but also items that have been learned by that person about themself, either from personal experiences or by internalizing the judgments of others. A simple definition of a person's self-image is their answer to the question "What do you believe people think about you?".

Self-image may consist of three types:

Self-image resulting from how the individual sees themself.

Self-image resulting from how others see the individual.

Self-image resulting from how the individual perceives others see them. 

If you have these problems just like me i just want to say i can really relate to you and you're not really that alone. To show some trust between me and you i want to share some of the things i have with self-image.

1. My Height:

Im a generally a short person, I'm a 13yr old and I've barely reached 5ft tall. I live in a house full of taller people than me and I'm constantly being teased about it. 

2. Weight:

I know I'm not fat as in obese but i do categorize my self as pretty overweight looking despite the fact that I've been told by so many people that I'm not fat. 

3. The way i dress:

I enjoy the way i dress, its comfortable you know but i think the fact that its so different makes me feel bad about being myself. my wardrobe consists of mostly black but i know for a fact that i am NOT EMO(sure i use the whole #emo as a joke but seriously) 

4. Face:

i point out everything thats wrong with my face. The fact that i have a weird face shape, to the fact that i don't wear makeup like every other 13-14yr old. Again despite the fact that people say I'm what do you call it? 'pretty'(thats a good joke tho) also that i have pretty great eyebrows and long curly eyelashes which means don't need mascara and shit. idk.

5. Hair:

my hair is a weird, wavy/curly, frizzy mess that i don't like to deal with with results in my only hairstyle being a braid. I also don't really bother with a hair straightener or curler which means I'm basically a mess

thats probably enough. 

So now that I've told you about my problems i hope you trust me and tell me about some of yours in the comments. I know i always will have these problems but at some point we all need to tell the voice  in our head to fuck off and point out the good every once in a while to help us not feel like shit. I hope this helped, its been a bit since I've written although i really should be finishing 2 essays that are due Tuesday, but instead here i am at almost 2am writing this for you all. I have no regrets.

also i am going to start dressing you guys as my friends, that sounds more casual right? 

i thoughts so. Okay I should work on those essays now.

bye!

(btw i was too lazy too fix all my mistakes and grammar errors, deal with it, if you don't like it what are you going to do about it? fight me. 

jk ily guys)