Dear You, I Need You ||Justin Hills||

Justin Hills' P.O.V

---- Recap ----

"Did you even know about Evan?"

No, I didn't, my 1 year old child. I never knew about.

I shook my head no, afraid that if I talked my voice would give up. My walls would fall. 

"Do you want to meet him?"

My eyes went wide with surprise. Meet him? They would let me?

You are his dad...

"Yes" I said quickly, nodding my head in pure happiness.

I'm gonna meet my baby. 

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~~ Still in Flashback ~~

"Alright Justin, right this way."

I followed the nurse as she walked down  a few hallways, taking different twists and turns. But, as I was walking my head felt as if it was going to burst. 

Ever sense I found out about Angela, I felt as if I was going to go crazy. 

My childhood friend, my soulmate, was in the hospital fighting for her life. I have a 1 year old son. Someone whom of which I gave a life to. And I never even knew. 

What happened to my life? Everything used to be normal and easy. I finished school, I was in a band, traveling the world meeting fans. I was faithful to Angela. She was supposed to be faithful to me. I thought she was. We were all happy. Not a worry in the world. 

Then the perfect world shattered, into a hell. But I don't know why. Did I do something wrong? 

"I'm gonna  need you to put this on" the nurse said, handing me a face mask to cover my mouth. "Safety percussion's."

Without a second thought, I threw on the mask. As I got it on, she opened the door and led me  to a small crib. 

The nurse, whom of which I still don't know the name of, smiled and picked up a small, beautiful baby. 

"Is this him(?)" I whispered. My vision was growing cloudy as I watched him squirm and cry. No doubt that he missed his mother. 

"Yeah" she said. 

I quickly walked over to him and grabbed under his arms, cradling him in my arms. He looked like me and Angela together. 

Her brown eyes, my nose. All of us have the same hair color. Angela's oval shaped face. It's like everything fell right into place with him. 

As soon as Evan looked at me, he went silent. Almost as if he knew I was his dad. 

"They couldn't get him to be quiet. Looks like you have the magical touch" she said, walking up to me and looking at Evan. 

"He really is precious."

She wasn't wrong. He was beautiful. His eyes sparkled and a lopsided smiled was etched onto is face. 

He was perfect, he was mine.

"Am I allowed to take him with me" I asked her, looking up from Evan and into her big, blue eyes.

"I don't see why not. You are the father" she told me. 

~~ Flashback over ~~

So here I am, sitting with Evan in my arms, looking at Angela.

I wasn't sure as to what I was supposed to do. Too much between us has changed. 

The way Angela looks, even change. 

Her old blond hair, was now dyed black. She has gotten more tattoo's and piercings. 

Before I left, she had only one tattoo. It's in honor of her parents. Who died when she was younger. Now, she has them dotting up her right arm, starting a sleeve. She now has a nose and lip piercing. Instead of only small gauges in her ears. Which are now only holes with the piercings in a bag. 

Angela lost a lot of weight. Her arms look like they have no meat on them. 

I remember that when she was sad before, it was harder for her to eat. She wanted to, but her body wouldn't let her. She always needed to take some medicine to help her. 

Her skin was paler. From the lack of blood, sun, and food. 

Again, when she was upset, she wasn't motivated. Like most people. 

I looked back down at Evan and noticed a small scratch in front of his ear. There was a small dab of dried blood right next to it.

Was Evan in the car when it crashed? Or did he hurt himself another time and it never got clean? 

I was interrupted from my thoughts by Angela rustling in her bed. She legs were slowly kicking and a look of pain was etched on her face. 

Suddenly, she let out a shrill scream. Full of pain and fear. Evan quickly got scared and started screaming and crying. Silence and peace, quickly turned to chaos.

"Nurse(!)" I called out "NURSE! Something isn't right!"

I ran out of the room and ran into a doctor. Nearly knocking him over. 

"She's screaming. I- I, I don't know what happened a-" the doctor didn't let me finish before running into the room, calling out for other nurses and doctors. 

I tried walking into the room behind them, but the nurse was quick to stop me. Telling me no visitors can go in. 

I didn't even fight back. I was too tired, too hurt. And in reality, I have no relation to her anymore. I just have to sit back and wait. 

And hope. Hope that everything will be alright. Hope that my hopes don't get crushed. 

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Update tomorrow. I was going to do one yesterday but I got sick and yeah. Boo :(

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~Christa :)