Dear You, I Need You ||Justin Hills||

Angela's P.O.V

"It was all a mistake, the cheating, the lying, kicking you out. None of it should've happened."

I was sitting in the hospital bed, Evan fast asleep in my arms. Justin looking at me. 

He opened his mouth to talk back but I quickly interrupted. 

"I was stupid. My mind was going crazy, I was scared. I thought you were going to leave me. That you didn't want anything to do with me or with Evan." I looked down at Evan with a sad smile on my face before looking up, "I didn't want to be hurt. I thought you were going to hate me, so I acted out. I put my walls back up."

Justin's eyebrows furrowed together, then shot up in anger. It didn't surprise me though. I messed up, I was a stupid 25 year old. My insecurities got the better of me. 

"You? You didn't want to get hurt? Did you ever think about me?! How it felt when stabbed me in the back with my own goddamn knife. All because you didn't want to get hurt. Did I ever mean anything to you? You know how I felt about you. You know how much I cared. I told you I wanted a baby. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I gave you my everything. Why can't you believe my?! Why can't you understand I goddamn love you. I still do! After all the shit you put me through. Even though I have a girlfriend. I still love you! I still need you! What makes you think I hated you? Why can't you just understand?"

Justin was pacing around the room, hand running through his hair. He couldn't focus on one thing, and it was easy to tell that he was close to breaking down. Too close. 

"I'm sorry" my voice barely came out as a squeak. I was terrified. It's been aged since I saw him this angry. His eyes shot to me, showing that he heard me talk and his face softened. 

He could tell I was scared. That he pushed a button.  And his mood quickly changed. 

"I know" he whispered. 

Before I knew it, Justin kissed my forehead and rushed out of the room. Leaving all of his stuff, his jacket and wallet, his keys and phone. Leaving Evan, leaving me. 

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~Woah

In the middle of this, I got an amazing idea. I have a planned book called insecurities. The idea is that I make them connected. Like, Angela's and Justin's life before Evan. 

OMG

If you like the idea, leave a comment :-)

Sorry if this is short, I was bored and waiting for my grandma to come from the airport. 

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