Maybe I'm Dreaming (owl city)

The Tip Of The Iceberg

*Adam'a POV*

I'd been up for hours, the black rings around my eyes had been permanent for the last few days. I couldn't sleep, couldnt eat, thinking every day might be my last with lily. I knew that if that was the case, I should be spending my time well, with lily, not hiding away in my room and sulking.

What was I going to do? Lily quite clearly knew something was going on and I was a terrible liar. I was going to have to tell her, there was no putting it off for any longer.

I walked aimlessly down random streets with my hood up and my head down. I really needed some time to think this through, how was I going to say this? This could be the end of me and lily, I might never see her again if I told her this. Maybe...

No, I had to do this. There was no point putting it off, i'd still have to do it eventually. I picked up the pace as I turned around to head home. Home. I sincerely hoped it would stay that way.

*Lily's POV*

I arrived downstairs to a huge breakfast and another note, but no Adam. I sat down and started munching on some food as I read the note he'd left.

'Lily,

So sorry to have left again, I got called back in. I'll be back as soon as I can!

Love you, Adam xx'

Once again, my mind went wild thinking of what might be wrong. Something was definitely up, this wasn't like Adam, leaving notes, not saying goodbye or being overly apologetic, I got the feeling he wasn't where he said he was, but then again he hasn't even said where he had gone.

Then I became overly emotional at the sudden rush of thoughts through my head. Avoiding me and lying about his whereabouts, was he really breaking up with me? Was he really going to leave, after all this time? My eyes stung with unspilled tears as I thought through and through the last twenty four hours.

We'd barely spoken in the last couple of days, he'd been out before I was up, locked away upstairs as soon as we got in, he was clearly avoiding me. Did that mean he didn't want to see me? Had I done something wrong? Or did he have bad news? Something he didn't want to tell me or something he didn't want me to know? We both knew he couldn't lie to save his life. My mind raced through every possibility as the tears ran down my cheeks at the thought of not having Adam.

I heard the sound of a key in the door, I dried my cheeks with the back of my hand and waited for Adam to run off upstairs straight away. I heard the closing door and then a click of the lock, but no footsteps. I didn't hear him quickly escaping from me and locking the door behind him.

Finally I heard his footsteps, heading towards me, and I panicked. I desperately tried to stop the new tears that threatened to fall. Much as I wanted to see him, I longed to see him, talk to him, hear his voice, hug him and never let go, somehow right now, it didn't seem like a good thing. Whatever he needed to tell me was big, and I didn't know if I wanted to hear it.

'Hi,' he mumbled as he looked down at the floor. I turned my head to look up at him behind me.

'Hi,' I replied quietly, nearly a whisper to stop my voice from breaking.

'We need to talk,' he said almost to quiet to hear as he tried to make eye contact and failed badly. I pulled up a chair next to me and motioned for him to sit.

He sat down and as soon as we made eye contact the tears spilled over and before I knew it I was letting out loud sobs.

This was going to be a long talk.