Maybe I'm Dreaming (owl city)

Dreams And Disasters

*Adam's POV*

'Hello?' I said putting my phone to my ear, knowing and dreading the voice I was inevitably going to hear.

'Hello Adam,' replied my tour manager 'now, I understand Breanne has been in touch with you recently, is that correct?'

'Yes, she called me earlier today,' I said trying to hide the worry and sadness in my voice.

'I hope you have had time to think through what she said by now. How's the music coming along Adam?' She asked, I knew this was a way to start the convocation about the tour. She wasn't going to just come out and say it to me because she knew how I freaked whenever a tour was mentioned. I'm a small town guy and the idea of being away from everything i knew and being thrown into the big world outside always frightened me, and now with Lily too..

'Yeah good, the insomnia's still keeping me up writing,' I say with a laugh, trying to keep the conversation lighthearted to put off the serious stuff.

'How many tracks have you got then? Sounds like you've been spending a lot of time on this, anywhere near a new album do you think?' She was getting straight to the point now and as I realise this my palms start to sweat with anxiety. I could hear Lily humming a new melody in the other room and as I thought of her my eyes pricked with tears. I paused for a moment before I responded.

'Yeah, I've got a-about 15 tracks, not fully arranged into an album track list or anything but i-it's getting there, me and a-a friend have been working on a l-lot of tracks the last couple of months.' I stutter and I hear my voice tremble down the phone.

'That's great Adam! Do you think you could come here to the office and see me any time soon? We could talk about this more then?' She asks, her voice is calming yet persuasive, it's almost impossible to disagree with her. My throat goes dry when I try to speak.

'Yeah sure,' I manage to choke out.

'Great! How's tomorrow for you then?' She prompts.

'Sounds good,' I agree quietly.

'Okay I'll see you then, 12:30?'

'Yeah, see you then,' I say hanging up the phone. I stare off into space as I think about what is going on.

I'm going on tour. There is nothing I can do to change that. By going on tour I'm going to have to leave Lily here, not see her for at lease four months, probably longer. Telling her will be as difficult as it was to tell myself. Depending on her reaction to the news I might never see her again, many people don't take kindly to being abandoned for months. Wether Lily breaks up with me or not over the matter, the fact is whilst I'm on tour I'm not going to be with her. I have no way of telling if she's going to miss me or not but regardless, I'm going to miss her.

*Lily's POV*

I lay on the bed twirling my pencil round my fingers as I hummed different tunes and melodies, debating in my head which ones to write down.

Adam had been through in the other room a long time now, he was on the phone to someone or other, probably related to the call with Breanne this morning. I glanced at the clock above the door, 6:10. I was getting hungry and I knew Adam was almost certainly hungry too. I hopped off the bed and started off down the stairs to make some dinner. I looked in at Adam on my way past but he seemed to still be deep in conversation.

When I got to the kitchen I searched around in the draws for something to make, I decided to settle for microwaveable spaghetti meatballs. I stuck them in the microwave and pressed start. As the meal spun round and round I got pulled deeper into my thoughts. I thought about how happy I was. Before Adam I couldn't remember being this happy, ever since I was a child. I'd just been living a life in routine with no particular outcome and I'd never once realised this. Now that I thought about it, Adam had come into my life at the perfect time. Nothing had been going on in my life and if needed someone to remind me of what I should be doing with my life and that I should at least be doing something with it. Without Adam I don't know where I would be now.

The microwave pings and startles me out of my daydreams and back into reality.

**authors note; I'm really sorry if I make the tour manager sound mean and I just want to say that that I'm sure this is in no way true!**