Sweet N' Savory

Chapter 13 (In Blairs perspective)

I was surprised when he stopped yelling at me. I was sure that he'd continue yelling but...It started getting weak. I'm so confused, does he-?...no, he couldn't. He has Luci anyways. Plus, if he did, how would I react. How would he react?

Instead of continuing yelling at me his voice started get weak and ended up hugging me. "Please...please don't do that again...you know how I feel about that" he said. When us said I couldn't promise that I could feel him grip the back of my shirt tighter.

I could feel myself slightly pulling back to look at him. I wanted to do it, I really did. He kept the side of his face on my chest. "...Jay" I said. "Hm..." he replied still with his face on my chest. Then I lost all confidence. "Nevermind..." I said. He just sat there deep in thought. The question wondered in my mind and I really wanted to say or do something it's been there long enough and it's now getting on my nerves.

He ended up pulling away wiping his face. Was he really crying? None the less...over me? "W-why are you crying?" I asked. He looked at me surprised but then sort of pissed. "Are you stupid!?!" He yelled. I just looked at him. "I'm crying because you're an idiot! You said you wouldn't do that anymore!" He yelled. "...I'm sorry" I replied. "No! Sorry doesn't remove the fucking scars of your wrists!" He yelled louder than last time.

"I don't know what to say then..." I said. "Say you won't do it again! Promise me!" He yelled. "Why are you making a fuss over me?" I asked. He looked at me with tears in his eyes but still angrily. "Because you're my bestfriend! I don't like seeing my friends hurt!" He shouted. I don't remember what I did then. I felt hurt and all I could think of was that word, 'friend'. I felt myself tear up and look away. "Why are you crying now?" He asked in annoyance. "Because...because I..." I started to say.