Sweet N' Savory

Chapter 17 (Blairs perspective)

I was just left, sitting there, all alone...I thought he left me some clues that he felt the same...but I guess not. I was so afraid this would happen, and it did. First it's my parrents leaving me, then all of my friends., now the person I admire the most.

I sat there trying to defeat the urge. 'I can't do it, even though how hurt I am...I promised, but that probably doesn't matter to him anymore. Raped my brother? Really? Is that all you could come up with? She's just selfish, I've shared him with her, she can't share him with me though.' I thought.

I hear them in the distance, she's yelling. Then it gets calm. I know they're talking but it sounds like a wisper from where I am. I sit there in silence. I force myself to sit there, not move, not get up. The whole night I just sat there. I finally fell asleep about 3 am. I woke up to Jim standing over me.

"Blair" he said. "Hm" I said in a groan still tired. "It's 3 pm wake up, I can't have you sleeping there all day, and what did I tell you about doing that to yourself?" Jim said. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. "I'm sorry" I said looking away. He kept looking at me then sighed. "I heard alot of yelling was going on...next door told me" he said. I kept looking away.

"Blair look at me and tell me what fucking happened, you're not 5 years old. You're an adult now" he said. I kept looking away and i weakly blurted out "Jay". "What about Jay? What happened?" He said softer than he had spoke before. "I...I don't want to talk about it..." I said weakly. Jim walked out while saying "we'll get this damn place cleaned up and don't do that in here again"

What the hell was he talking about? That? What does he mean when he says that? I thought to myself then I realized. I jumped up and yelled, "We didn't do that! He got pissed at me because I kissed him!...his girlfriend came...they're both pissed at me..." I said slightly talking quieter. He just looked at me. I looked away starting to tear up.