A Blank Ink Story

Chapter5: Make or Break ?

Oh how I wished that my prayer will be heard, for just even in my wildest dreams that I can hear you saying that you're loving me too, for when you're gone... my world will be out of colors and everything that would give life... because all I wanted, is to be with you.

I woke up in the morning with that thought in my head, and not even a single tardiness was felt by my body, it's like I'm all hyped up and ready to face today's ugly turn of events. As I read myself to the office, I began sharing about Tammy and how I met her, and what I always feel whenever she's walking around ... all things got quiet and it's like time slowed down as you can see her curly blonde hair bounce as she walks in front of you, and that smile that she makes me fall in love again and again... after sending them that message, I began to question myself too ...

" I'm in love ?? "

They find our story cute and they shudder just by hearing what I was saying to them, and as I spoke her name ...

"Tamara is her name haha.. "

"OMG!! she's so beautiful.."

"deyuumm!! her name is so foreign !!!"

"so cute hahahaha, why won't you court her ? "

"Yeah he's right, why won't you court her ? "

That question left me speechless... court her ?? I mean .. seriously!? ..

"are you going to lose her the way you lost your bestfriend ? "

It rang a bell again to me ... as I said to them with a trembling heart ..

"I'll see ... "

As terrifying as it can be, I know that my chances are slim or maybe not even an inch of succeeding but the question is not whether I have a chance or not, the real deal here is that I have to take a shot. Either ways, I don't want to think about it. I can't afford to lose my mood in writing this chapter so I indulged myself looking to the bright side instead of those chances.

I was on my way home after staying at the office for 8 hours doing nothing because we got no events on that day, to be exact, we got to the office only to eat lunch and go home... as simple as that. As I walk to the terminal to ride a jeepney, I began to think how's Tammy doing.. because she'll have her final exam in cisco tomorrow and I haven't even gave her the reviewer that I've used way back when I was taking that subject. I managed to get home in just 25 minutes of travel and I quickly messaged her and ... the worst thing came to me... our modem is broken and that means no internet for a couple of days... YESSS!! WOOOH ... how bad can things turn for now ? ... luckily I still got my phone and abused the free data... well this are the things I do for love. So I told her about our modem being broken and her reply ? priceless ...

She said ... " hahahaha congrats, go change you're provider right away !! ... "

Well, I expect nothing less from her, true friends are truly there to congratulate you when you're in peril. It just proved that she is worth writing a book.

Oh well too much for that, I know she's on the edge of failing cisco so, I gave her 5 versions of the final exams with answers on them to ensure that her exams will be smooth as silk tomorrow and I even talked to one of the high orders to pass her... when I said "pass her" it's not an order of mine for the to follow but... it's a wish that might be granted or not.

In order for her to review all 5 versions of the exams, I let her have the rest of her evening reviewing for that examination.

The following day, just before the exams started I sent her a something to boost her spirits..