A Blank Ink Story

Chapter 2: Ta... Ri...

Story goes, I can't keep my wilds eyes off of her. that's what I always sing out when Taylor Swift's Style is playing. Days pass again and another note is being written in the board but this time, everyone can consider it as a note for ants... I mean come on Mrs. Misola ... please make it bigger... but her response was like this...

"Can you still see it class ? That's okay, just go here in front" ...

You guess ? hahaha students will really have to adjust because it's either you copy the notes or get a low grade after the discussion because most of the examples written there will pop out at the exams sooner or later. We're taking down notes and all the poor students at the back populate the front, others just decided to wait and let Mrs. Misola finish the notes so that they'll take a picture of it, smart move bruh. As soon as we got half through the notes... there goes that mystery princess again with her blonde and curly hair, those braces combined with her incomparable smiles and those dazzling eyes stopped me in my tracks once again but this time ... it wasn't just her walking in front to jot down notes ... she actually talked... to Yanie and damn, her voice that hugs your ears down to your heart... just pure love and nothing more... from that very moment... I heard her name as she was talking to Yanie... She called her tummy... Wait!! ... Tummy !? why Tummy !? as in a stomach !?... oh wait maybe it's Tommy but ... that's a name befitting a boy... maybe it's Tami !?  ... hmmmmm Tammy ?? ... okay we'll go for it ... Tammy ... her name is Tammy ... Ugghhh a lovely girl with a lovely name ... where have you been all my life ? ... at least that's what my cinematic mind said... but going back, Our eyes met again as she talk to Yanie and I realized myself in a very confusing... situation. I'm in love with a girl(Yanie) who is a friend of my crush (Tammy). Damn life, why you do this to me, but I it's life, thing will turn out by time.

You just can't beat love that's what they always say, that saying resulted into a decision that affect the course of my circus life.  I decided to take Yanie out for a date... hmmmmm you're probably thinking that I'm getting to the point to fast but actually I asked her for a date in a blink of an eye... yes it's like a question outta nowhere... like a real life RKO vines that you see over the internet. Once again yes I asked her for a date

... "Yanie, lemme date you ." ...

" you got some guts joking like that.. "

"No seriously" ...

"I can't sorry" ...

"okay" ...

Pretty sad right ? It's like cupid is shooting nails at my coffin but every time I was buried to the ground, I crawled back to start the cycle again. But this time I followed what google suggested to me... be friendly and let her know that you're courting her... so here it goes ... round 2 ...I asked her...

"Yanie, Can I court you ?" ...

my heart froze and I was left out of words to her response...

"Jel, sorry I feel guilty because of the efforts that you're showing to me because I can't give back the same thing for you ... I don't want you to expect something from me, I know what it feels like to wait and expect for something that won't love you in return and I don't want you to feel the same, so .. sorry you can't court me."

... all I've sent her that night was a smiling emoticon ... I'm really out of words and I left my phone at my room and rushed upstairs where I tire myself punching the sandbag until It calm me down ... and on the other day... we met again with an awkward moment, because she's my seatmate but yet we're not looking or talking to each other. Everyone can see the wound in my fists, they all know that I box because it's my exercise but only me and Yanie knew the reason behind those wounds.

   After a week of being dumped for the second time, my heart just never learned to give up on her, I asked her again whether if I got a chance or not, but the results just won't change but on the 6th time, I just asked her for a friendly date... and she agreed, I treated her at a convenience store... near FEU, the every famous, 7/11 ... I bought her some bengbeng(chocolate wafer bars) ... funny but she loves them, little words were spoken that day because most of the time, I was jus staring at her... my minds says it all ... if she was my girl, I could change the world but if not then ... this is the time that I will say ... "I'll just accept that this is it, I'm satisfied because from the beginning and to the very end, I did everything I could and I have no regrets " from my heart came those words of acceptance ... and when the night comes .. I talked to her again ...

"Aren't you going to dump me? " ...

"Jel :( , how many times have you done that?? and I answered that question far many times too :( " ...

"Yanie, Until you say it one more time I'll say this case is over. " ...

"Alright! You are Busted, you got no chance on me, :( sorry but this is what you wanted right? There .. I am giving it to you :( " ...

"Thank you Yanie :), it's been a great adventure." ....

" I hope we can still be friends." ...

"Don't worry, we will :) " ...

After that conversation, My heart began to accept the fact that it's not meant this way but somehow, it's like I gained something out from what transpired there.

The first week of December had passed, We never ceased to talk to each other after what happened, but we even grew closer than she thought we would... One more week to go and Christmas vacation will be here and everyone will go to their respected vacation places. I was walking around the hyper market at Mall of Asia when I remembered Yanie... Not as the one who dumped me but the one who stayed and chose the best for us. I saw a notebook while I was walking ... And remembered those days filled with laughter together. I bought it together with a pen, So that when she jot down anything on it... It's like writing something for me, absent mindedly keeping all your secrets safe. Also I managed to get her a keychain, a small turtle plushie secretly saying that, things will be okay because slow and steady wins the race. In addition to that gift, is something so precious that most girls only dreamed of receiving from someone special to them. So the day comes that I will turn over the gift, I quickly go to FEU to search for her room, I came there 6 in the morning and the guard didn't let me pass coz it's still too early, but when the guard came to notify me that I can now enter, that's where things tilted to my side, I saw Yanie, still walking with those glasses and that red lip classic that I like ...we had a little conversation while boarding the elevator, being surprised she said to me...

"Oh Jel... " ....

I replied

" why are you here so early haha?" ...

Still feeling sleepy whe she said...

"Nothing, I just came out of our residence early. " ...

And with that conversation, I forgot to lend my gift to her she got off at the 6th floor, while I got off at the 7th, so I idiotly rushed all the way down so that I would never lose the chance of giving it to her, after the rush I managed to get to the 6th floor ... And just as I walk in the lobby, I saw her seated, while listening to her playlist... She looked at me with full of questions in her head, because we saw each other a while ago and here I am again, but this time... Carrying a box containing the best gift that I've ever given to... I said

"Yanie, my gift for you" ...

"Oh! Jel Thank you "

she's still surprised and can't find the right emotion as I replied to her ...

"You're Welcome " ...

As I walk back to the 7th floor where I should be, I began hearing her friends saying

"open it right now!!" ...

"Yiieee" ...

"You should talk to him" ...

and inside that box is something only she received... No one else received it and that gift is a sincere word that my heart bated out up to my tongue ... "I love you Yanie" ... I feel relieved that she's so happy about the gift.