Shaforostop It (2015)

Chapter 33 - Know This.

I walked out of my bedroom to see Cameron looking at me from the couch, with tears in her eyes, and her phone in her hand. "Cam? What's wrong?" I adjusted my gym bag on my shoulder, as I was just about to go train. I was finally beginning to feel better about all that had happened. Denis had finally called me, and though he left early, he still called. That's what was important to me.

"Go." Cameron held her phone away. "Train. I'm fine." She smiled and wiped her face.

"Cameron it's fine I can talk for-"

"No." She blocked me from sitting down beside her. "Go. We can talk when you get back."

"Cam I'll be gone all day, just tell me what happened."

"No." She raised her voice. I'll tell you tonight. When you get home. I promise. Just go."

"Okay..." I said hesitantly. "See you tonight." I walked out and drove my rental car to the gym.

CAMERON'S POV

No. I can't tell her. She'll flip. She'll go fucking crazy. I dialed Denis' number and called him as soon as she left. "Cameron I-"

"I don't wanna hear anything that isn't 'no the video is fake'. Please. Please Denis." I begged as lump grew in my throat. He didn't say anything for a while.

"Does she know?"

"No. I don't think so. She left before I told her." He sighed in relief. "What the hell happened?" I breathed. "How did that video even-"

"I was on the phone will her. Cameron came and brought me to the bar where James was drunk and yelling. He just, said it. I can't-" he stopped himself before he finished.

"I'll tell her tonight." As both of us were silent, and I realized there was a lot of people talking on Denis' end. "Where are you?" I asked.

"I'm at the airport." He sighed.

"What?" I coughed.

"Yeah. I'm flying home in a hour."

"What the fuck? Why? What about Asking? How the hell are they gonna play without you?"

"They found a fill in last minute. It's not big deal. They'll be fine. I just- I can't be around them right now. Can't be around him." It slowly occurred to me that this was going to affect every aspect of our lives. Would Denis be leaving forever? Would James leave? Will Leda be able to continue gymnastics with such a burden? Such a weight on her shoulders?

"Denis, you can't leave."

"I can't leave what?" I sighed and pulled my hair back roughly.

"Everything. You can't leave Asking. You can't leave Germany. You can't leave Leda."

"I would never dream of leaving her in a million years, Cameron."

"What about Asking?" He was silent. "Just, think about it Denis. She's gonna call you after I tell her what happened anyways, so just, make sure she knows you love her. If anything you should be on your way here instead of home." Again, he was silent.

"Who?" Roger walked out of the hallway and sat down beside me.

"Denis," I mouthed. "Look, I have to go. Okay?"

"Yeah. You're okay, right?" He sounded genuinely concerned. I smiled half-heartedly.

"Yeah, I'll live. You're alright?"

"Yeah," he said softly. "I'll live. Goodbye, Cameron."

"What's wrong? You sound sad." In very little detail, I explained what had happened. All of it. Everything. Roger was shocked.

"How could you not tell me!" He shouted through his thick accent.

"We didn't want to worry you." He stood and picked his keys off the table. "What are you doing?"

"Going go get Leda."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (LEDA'S POV)

I couldn't say that I was surprised. Hurt. But not surprised. I'd sort of been expecting the results of the confession for a while, and hearing that it was true still hurt me, but I wasn't distraught. Apparently everyone else was much more upset, and thought I would be. What I was most upset about was Denis leaving. He just left. He went home. He abandoned the guys on tour, because he couldn't deal with somethpossibly happened to me. I don't understand. Is he coming back to tour after a while. Is he just leaving forever? What is Asking Alexandria breaks up? What if I'm the reason. I don't want that. I thought back to what Ben said. 'Whatever happens here, it's gonna change everything'. I pulled my sheets close as a tear slid down my cheek. My muscles burned from the days work, only half complete because Roger showed up and forced me to come home. I was angry at Cameron for telling Roger what happened without my permission. There was a knock on my bedroom door.

"Leda?" It was Cameron. I didn't want it to be anyone other than Denis, or possible Ben. But I knew that wouldn't happen. Because they were both in different places, and equally far from me.

"Go." I commanded.

"Leda, talk to me."

"Fuck, off, Cam. I'm not in the mood." I spat. I heard her walk off. I lay in bed and looked up at the plain white ceiling. What's Brandi gonna say? What about the other guys? Have they talked about it since? I watched the video on YouTube over and over again, no matter how many times I cried. James shouting. At first that he didn't do it. Denis gets up on the bar and confronts him. James goes silent. He doesn't say anything. Not a word. How could he do that? Could he not at least have the balls to get the fucking words out? Not even a yes. Then Denis' punches James hard enough to make me not worry about James, but the hand that connected with his cheek. I watched Denis beat James with all his strength, and watched Cameron and Ben pull him away. Denis was screaming. Though the camera was blurry, I could make out faint tears on his cheeks. That's what hurt me the most. I had never seen him cry before. I threw my phone down across the room and heard it hit the floor.

"Leda." Roger said harshly.

"Let us on." Kyle added. I was so angry that they knew. I didn't want Kyle to be mad at Denis, and I knew he would be. I didn't want them to think it was his fault.

"No!" I shouted. "I told you all to go the fuck away." I rolled over in my bed and buried my face in a pillow. My bed had become a nest, with pillows and blankets as the surrounding walls. I didn't care if it sounded childish; all the bad things never happened in my little nest. I was safe.

"We have something for you." Roger sighed. I ignored them, wishing to return to being miserable in peace. I felt a familiar hand on my shoulder. When I looked up to I saw Ben standing beside my bed with a small smile. It took my a second to realize that he was real, and that I wasn't just crazy.

"I-" I sat up on my knees quickly as my throat caught. He simply pulled me to a hug. I held him back so tightly as I felt a tear drop down my cheek.

"It's okay, Leda." He said softly, his arms wrapped tightly around me, enveloping me in his warmth. "You're okay."

I feel like the last few chapters have been anticlimactic filler shit...

ALSO: I wanna know what you think about Leda. Just the character, not the plot revolving around her. Do you like her? Do you think she's annoying? Do you think she's like you? Could you be friends in another life? I'm dying for feedback, as I feel like all my main character ladies have been falling rather short of what I think a POV character should be. Comment and let me know!!