all of the stars [phan-completed]

4/7

"phil lester, you are the light of my life. the reason i wake up every morning. you keep me going, you keep me alive. phil, you literally saved me. i don't know where i'd be without you; probably stuck at a crappy job, hating my life. i love you with all of my heart, and i want to spend the rest of my life with you. so phil, will you marry me?"

i opened the small velvet box revealing a silver ring.

he looked down at me, but said nothing. he was not smiling like i was, he looked so guilty.

"i-i'm sorry. i can't. i can't do this anymore..."

i closed the box, staring into his eyes. they used to be so full of light, but now they emitted sadness; darkness.

"what do you mean? phil?"

"i'm so sorry dan."

and he ran. he ran away from the waterside where we had our first date. the sun was about to set.

the beautiful memory was now tainted with words of rejection.

i woke up; my pillow was stained with tears. i gripped it tighter, trying to forget the pain.

but pain can never be forgotten. the pain can only be numbed by happiness; the kind of happiness i haven't felt since you left that night.

i twirled the silver ring around my finger. no matter how hard i tried, i could not bring myself to get rid of it. it reminded me of you. and no matter how much i wanted to forget about you, i could not forget the way you made me feel.

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