i hate myself

1.

"Breathe, breathe, breathe."

And you will see

"Breathe, breathe, breathe."

That, all you got to do is

"Breathe."

"Lu!"

Ugh

"Coming!"

I took one last breathe before heading down stairs to see Pan. Pandora is my sister. She and I both have to take care of each other, we're the only two in the family. Both of our parents died in a car crash 6 years ago when they were driving to California. Ever since then, she and I are the only reason why we have each other.

"Don't forget your food, don't want to pick you up dead from school," Pan said as she head over to the door, "Yea, yea."

First day back after the break, great. I couldn't wait to go and see my 'friends.' To be honest, I actually like going to school. It's just something about writing and doing work makes me feel relaxed.

"I'll pick you up at the library by 4."

"Kay, bye Pan."

"Lu," I turned around, "please, don't hurt yourself."

"Alright, 'mom'."

"Hardy hard har."

"Byeeeeee."

"Hey, Lu!"

Well, I did say that I have a friend, didn't I?

"Hey, Lane," he opened his arms, welcoming a hug.

"How's my favourite Luna?" he gave me the goofiest smile ever, I think it's pretty cute.

"Eh, trying to get through this morning, Laney," I chucked.

"Awe, come on, Lu, you know I hate when you call me that," he crossed his arms and turned away.

I laughed and moved him towards me, "I know that because I'm an amazing friend."

"Yes you are!"

Lane is a nerd. But a cute, dorky, nerd. He's great at geometry, which it comes in handy with myself, I can't pass that shitty class. My primary classes are basically animation, designs, technology, all that lovely crap that I enjoy to do, this is why I'm here, I don't just come here because I don't have a life.

"Hey, Lu."

"Yesh."

"Are you going to stay at your dorm tonight? You haven't been back there since your mothers birthday. I mean if you would like to go back home with Pan, I totally I get it. I'm not forcing you, but if you do, maybe we can watch a movie or something or-"

"Sure, Lane, let me ask Pan to not worry about picking me up," I smiled.

"Oh, Kay!"

Luna: Hey, Pan, don't worry about picking me up today, I'm staying at my dorm.

Pandora: You sure, you know what happens when your alone, right!