i hate myself

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LANES POV

Where's Luna?

I've been waiting for her for 10 minutes. She still hasn't come back. How long does it take to get a couple of snacks?

Lane: Lu? Did you get the snacks?

5 minutes, no reply.

Lane: Lu? What's taking so long?

10 minutes, no reply.

Lane: Lu?

I put on my shirt and headed to the hallway to look for Lu. When I made it outside, she wasn't by the vending machine. I headed back inside, but I heard crying from the side of the building. I want to see what it was about, cause you know me, I'm curious.

It was to dark, I could see cloths everywhere. And I saw a figure, laying, crying on the floor. It was Lu.

I rushed to her. Her arms were all tied up and the tape was on the corner of her mouth.

"Lu! What the fuck happened?!" I crouched down and helped her up.

"S-s-S-Someone r-r-ra-"

She broke down into tears.

"Shhh, it's okay, it's okay, I'm here."

I didn't notice that she was naked. I tried not to focus on that. I took my jacket off and wrap it around her, and brought her shorts to her. I helped her up. She was shaking.

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I brought her back to her dorm. I placed her down on the bed. She immediately placed the covers over her face. I could hear her crying even more.

"Lu? Do you want to talk about it?" I said while sitting down next to her.

She took the covers of her face and gave me a nod "no".

I rubbed the side of her leg, but she pulled away, groaning in pain. Her leg was revealed. I could she bruises between her thighs. She was raped.

"Who fucking did this to you?! I swear to god I will fucking kill the son of a bitch that raped my friend," I walked up to the mirror and punched it with my knuckles, and the mirror was cracked. My hand was staring to bleed.

"Hey, don't go off and hurt yourself," she said whispering, "You already got punched in the face."

She walked to me, grabbing my hands, and getting the medicine. It burned like hell.

"It's my fault for not going with you to get the food. It's my fault, it's my fault, it's my fault-"

"It isn't your fault."

"Yes it is! I was stupid to let you go! He raped you, Lu, he raped you! He raped the one I love and care for so much! And he just raped you!"

She put her head down and started crying.

"Lu, I care for you! And I just had to let you go! It's my fault! I'm such a fucking idiot to lose you! Lu, I love you! I want you to be safe!"

"I love you, too, Lane," she said softly, "I know you want to keep me safe."

I hugged her tightly. I didn't want to let her go. She hugged me back.

A I pulled away, I could see the hurt from her eyes. I kissed her cheek. She gave me a small smile.

"I want to finish the movie," she said.

"Okay," I have her a smile.

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Lu and I were finishing off The Return of the Jedi. We were lying by the head rest. My arm was around her shoulder.

Pandora: How's my sister? You didn't do anything to her right?

I grabbed my phone and started to text Pandora back.

Lane: No, no I didn't do anything to her. But someone did something to her.

Pandora: What the fuck happened to her?

Lane: Pandora, she was....raped.

Pandora: WHAT THE FUCK! WHO THE FUCKING RAPED MY LITTLE SISTER?

Lane: Lu didn't tell me who.

Pandora: IM GOING DOWN THERE TO SEE HER

Lane: DONT DONT see would get upset.

Pandora: Please, keep her safe.

Lane: Gotcha.

I placed my phone down and cuddle back with Lu.

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6:30pm

I woke up from a nap, Lu was still sleeping. She was rigging against my shirt. She was scared. How couldn't she'd been? She was raped. And it was my fault.

I got up to put Back to the Future on. I wasn't tired, so a movie wouldn't hurt.

Why wasn't I there?

Why wasn't I with her?

It's my fault it's my fault it's my fault.