i hate myself

14.

I felt a grasp.

Amy was holding on to my hand, while Lane was holding her to keep her from falling.

I could hear screaming below me. All of my classmates, teachers, and staff were in shock to see me hanging on to the side of a building.

Amy pulled me back up to the roof, she and Lane held me tight.

"Luna! Luna! We thought we lost you!" I can feel Amy's tears falling on my cheek, or it might be just the rain

"I'm sorry for yelling at you before, I'm so so so sorry!" Lane, too, was crying on me.

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"Luna! I see that you're awake."

"Mhm."

"Do you feel alright?"

"I guess."

"Are you hungry, we have some bread if you would like?"

"That's fine, thank you."

"Okay. I'll be back in just a moment. If you need anything you can just call me, okay?"

"Okay."

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"Oh dear, Luna, do you have a fever?"

"I don't feel so well."

"Come with mommy to the doctors."

"Okay."

...

"She has the flu. Let her rest for a couple of days, and she be right back up again."

"Okay, thank you ma'm."

"My pleasure, Oh! And Luna, would you like a lollipop?"

"Yes, please!"

"Alright."

"Luna."

"Mhm."

"Here's your bread."

"...Thank you."

"Would like something to drink?"

"Water would be nice."

"Okay. And how about a lollipop after you finish eating?"

"Yes, please!"

"Ha, same old Luna."

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"Psst, you got a visitor."

"Mhm, you can bring them in, Jen."

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"How's my favourite sister?"

"Eh."

"That's your answer for everything....it felt like years that I haven't seen you."

"It was only just yesterday."

"I know that, but, today seem such a long, horrible day for you. All that bullshit that happened to you in the morning, you being paralysed. It was scary for me."

"Panic attack is just a panic attack."

"That can kill you."

"Yup...Did you tell them that I was here."

"No, but I was planing, too. I just want to be with my sister for a while, without all the chaos."

"Are you still going to tell them?"

"Not if you want me too."

"I don't mind."

"Alrighty then. I'll tell them tomorrow morning."

"Okay."

"Do you want me to stay with you for the night? So you don't have to be alone when the next person comes in."

"It's fine by me."

"Okay."

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8:01am

"Okay Luna-Lu! I thought them to come and visit if they want."

"Thanks-and oh and can you ask one of them to bring my phone?"

"Ugh, so much texting!"

"Pan."

"Yea yea."

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5:50am

"We literally have been watching Grease on repeat for 9 hours."

"It's a marathon, come on, cheer up."

"I just can't handle watching Riz and Kenickie fucking each other again, and again."

"Let them be, and besides I love the movie."

"Ever since we were kids."

BOOM!

"LUNA!"

"FLAIRE STELLA."

"How's my best friend doing? I heard everything that happened to you and I will kill the living shit out of that shithead that fuck with my best friend."

"Thank you."

"Stell and I brought you some gifts to make you feel better."

"Thanks you guys!"

"Tryna being better than me uh Flaire."

"Everyday....Well me and Stell have to go, sorry if this was a short welcome, we love you, and hope you get better, LU!"

"Bye, Flaire, Stell."

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"What an intrusion."

"Oh, shut up Pan."

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10:30am

KNOCK KNOCK!

"Come in."

"Hi Lu!"

"Hey Amy."

"I will just let you two be."

"Thanks, Pan."

"So how's it going?"

"Fine."

"I brought a gift for you."

"Thanks."

"No problem."

"...How's Lane."

"Still in shock about the whole thing, couldn't stop crying."

"Mhm."

"He never told me when he would visit you."

"Oh, thanks for telling me though."

"Anytime."

"And thank you for saving me."

"Like I always do....I'll be going, and I will keep you updated on the homework as well!"

"Heh, thanks!"

"Buh-bye!"

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"Now! Let's get back to watching Grease!"

"Oh so now you love it."