Ms. Believer [On Hold]

10. Siblings

Short chapter. 

"You aren't going to that party, Kendall!" Liam yelled at me. He might have his reasons on why he isn't letting me go the party, but still, I don't understand why. 

At first he wanted me to have lots of friends and go out by my own side, now that I'm finally making real friends, even maybe getting a boyfriend, he is screwing everything up. 

Not wanting to argue wit him, I sighed and got up from the spot I was sitting, "Okay" I walked past him and made my way to my bedroom. 

Liam is a sweet and amazing guy, to be honest I feel like we are really close and I do feel the brother-sister bond we are creating but sometimes he is overprotective. I don't need someone to be looking after me like he does.

I'm used to be by my own. Yes, I know that I had my mom a few years ago, I had the perfect family and really I didn't know what being by my own meant but now I do, and sometimes I'd prefer to be back in Los Angeles, have my shitty life, be in that shitty annoying school and having that annoying boyfriend I had. 

But then again, that can't happen again. My mom is gone and she is never coming back. My dad has moved on, he got this amazing wife now that I truly adore. He has his dream job now.

When it comes to me, I got nothing really. I'm trying my best to be happy for my dad and to be happy for myself but it's really hard. Sometimes it is easy and sometimes it is hard. At this moment the only source of happiness that I got is knowing that I will die. Some day we all will die. 

I love seeing Cara, my best friend, happy. I love it when she sees Niall. Her eyes light up and her smile grows wider. She changed her whole mood and becomes a whole different person, the Cara I met when I was a toddler. 

When I see Cara and my dad, I see love radiating from their skin. I want to feel that. I want to know if that feeling will make me want to stay. I want to know what that thing called love is. 

Aaron might be that one. Aaron is handsome and lovely. He is always nice to me and he is one of the kindest guys I've ever met. His intentions are good, I know that for a fact. When Aaron touches me I feel good, I feel happy. When I'm talking I feel like he is really listening to me, like he actually cares. Harry might be that one. 

Harry? I groaned and plopped into my king size bed, I closed my eyes and sighed in frustration.

How could I mistake Aaron's sweet self, for Harry's cruel self?

I'll to start to remind myself to stop thinking about Harry. Yes, we shared a kiss, but so what? That's the only thing that happened between us. Harry have done a lot of activities with other girls. They have shared a lot of intimate sessions, which thing I would never do, not with him. However, he is dating Paige and I don't think she would be happy to know that I think about her boyfriend. 

"Fuck" I whispered under my breath, this is getting frustrating. 

My eyes were closed, I was in a peaceful yet confused state but my thoughts got interrupted by the obnoxius sound coming from the door of my bedroom.  

I got up and fixed my dress as I walked up to the door, "Oh," I said, my voice low, I forced myself to look down at the floor "Hi, Harry" 

"Hi Harry? That's everything you have to say after what I saw downstairs? Really?" His voice came out frustrated, his breathing was heavy as he leaned against the doorframe. What else he wanted me to say? Oh sorry for almost kissing your cousin after seeing you making out with your new girlfriend?