I'm really tired, I couldn't sleep overly well last night, I kept having
Nightmares
They weren't fun, getting cut open and bleeding to death, being drugged and violated, being murdered over and over and over again
Now I'm not one to cry but after yesterday being sad enough, I sat quietly crying at midnight, not much only a few tears cause I'm not one to cry anymore but the nightmares and everything else got to me, I broke down and cried a little
And I'm not proud of it, I am normally the rock, I don't show emotions except anger, I'm normally the shoulder to cry on but I broke and melted away, I'm constantly trembling and I just can't function now, I've lost a gear and I'm broken without it.
My life has been turned upside down and I've had a part of me ripped out, and to be honest I'm struggling a lot, I just don't know what to do now. I'm lost
