(ON HOLD) Captain America x Reader x Chris Evens

Chapter 3

When the two of you arrive at the clearing Steve cleared away some leaves and placed a blanket on the ground from a pack the driver had given to him. The blanket normally would have been able to hold two people comfortably but because of Steve's size you ended up nearly in his lap. When you looked up his face was cheery red and he slid away slightly to give you some room. He clears his throat and asks:
"So um it looks like we'll have quiet some time to our um selves so maybe..." he trails off looking away still obviously flustered from the sitting arrangements.
"Maybe what?" you ask trying make him more comfortable by sliding slightly away. This seemed to work because his skin color began to return to normal.
"Maybe you could tell me how you got involved with S.H.I.E.L.D?" he asks. You lean back on the palms of your hands and sigh. You knew it was coming but you had hopped maybe he would forget for today. It wasn't something you looked to talk about with anyone including Chris. The few people you had told either left you or walked on eggshells around you afterward. Chris had taken it the best ,which was why you loved him so much, but he hadn't understood how much pain you were in.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to or if it's to difficult for you," he says seeing your discomfort, "I'll understand no matter what you decide [y/n]."
"Steve I -I don't tell many people about my past," you admit,"For one it's not easy for me and for two most people don't understand even if they say they do."
"[Y/n]... I'm sorry for pushing you, like I said you don't have to tell me," he says gently.
"No I want to tell you I just wanted you to know that," you say. You take a deep breath and try and find a place to begin.
"If it will make it easier on you I could tell you about my past first," he says smiling gently. You nodded not sure you could form words and he began.
"Well I was born July 4th 1920, and don't start laughing and making jokes. Not long after I was born my dad passed away. I don't remember much about him but my mom always told me stories about him. They met during the first world war. While I was growing up I was a sick kid and not just colds. I had asthma, heart problems, anemia, hernias, and I also caught scarlet fever when I was young. Thank God my mom was a nurse or I don't think I would have lived for very long. Because I was so sickly I only had one friend growing up. His name was Bucky Barns and he stuck with me through thick and thin and protected me when other people tried to pick on me. When I lost my mom he was there for me and refused to let me face it alone. Of course I'm assuming you know about the whole super-soldier program and that it actually worked for me. At first they had me as a figure head of sorts ,but then I found out Bucky's unit had been captured and well I couldn't stand by and do nothing when he's been saving me my whole life. I asked a friend of mine, Peggy, to help me get out of the camp to go save him and the rest of the soldiers. After I was able to rescue them the higher ups put me into a combat position along a small team ,called the Howling Camandos, which did include Bucky. And then I..I wasn't abel to save him during one of our missions," around this point he started crying and had to take a moment before he was able to continue,"It was really hard for me after that so I threw myself into making sure his sacrifice wasn't in vain. And when it came down to it in order to save the world from Hydra I had to sacrifice myself to the ice."
You could see Chris was struggling to keep himself together afterwards because he refused to look you in the eyes. It was hard for him to think about all the people he lost and things he'd missed while trapped in the ice. You understood how hard it was to think back to the events of the past ,so you shifted toward him and placed your hand over his ,not offering empty words of comfort, just simply being there.
"Thank you," He said breaking the silence.
"For what?"
"For just listening."
You smiled up at him and took a deep breath ready to begin your story.
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Hey author here and it's like 5am where I am but Yay a new chapter! I was originally planning on this being readers back story but it just wasn't working right here so I decided to have Steve do some sharing instead ,but don't worry readers back story will be the next chapter! See ya then! Also if there are any mistakes I'm sorry!