"Don't tell me what you think i wanna hear. I'm a grown up and know how to deal with what is gave . you say I'm this when you treat me like that. I'm not your mule that you can slave around with matters of the heart. What kinda issues do you expect to come from me.? " asked Jim.
" look all I'm saying is maybe if you started to act like a better human being instead of a complete jackass. I mean look at it this way the issue i have is that you manipulate me into feeling sorry that i have friends. I'm sick and tired of you telling me that i cant talk t someone just because you don't like them." Answered Jessie.
" maybe i come off a bit to strong minded and it seems like i control you. But the truth is i don't control you. I don't manipulate you. All i do is point out details and ask simple everyday questions. But you over think a majority of them which leads to sad thoughts.. Look at it like this if you really saying all these things to you, then why don't you treat me like it ?
Actions speak louder then words ever can." Said Jim
" you don't think i know this ? I see this every damn day. I deal with mire shit then i lead you to believe. You keep telling me i can do what i want and with who i want but when i actually do you get upset at me and make me feel sad. I use to always go to you when i was sad but here as of late i been wanting to be alone. Just sit alone and not think about how much you really hurt me. All while knowing that you love me but maybe.. maybe i just don't love you the same way as i use to. " snarled Jessie
" I'm, speechless that you would say that " whimpered Jim
" whatever, i just want to be alone" groaned Jessie
Meanwhile Jim found himself in though and he was really sad hearing those words from the love of his life really hit him hard. He began to shut down and as he sat there. hour after hour after hour sitting there unable to move to weak to wanna breath. As his eyes close and everything goes black which seems to be only a min turns into 10 hour's. With a faint sound coming from somewhere in the room start off as a whisper
" hey , hey wake up . you are gunna be okay buddy wake up , you are are in good hands now" said the doctor
" what happened? Where am i? How did i get here? " mumbles Jim
" you blacked out from blood loss honey " whispered Jessie
" you. Why would you bring me to the hospital for ? You needed some alone time what are you doing ? Why are you even here ?" snickered Jim
" just hush up sweetie I'm here now, i love you " said Jessie
" no, no you don't. Stop pretending that you do and then a couple days later it goes back to the same thing. I should have died . but--
" shhh baby " said Jessie
" no listen to me, do you have any ideal on why i decided to cut my wrists ? . well if not here is it all.
You treat me like shit. You make me feel like i am worthless and unimportant. You make me cry myself to sleep. You criticize me in front of everyone. And when you say you wanna be alone you go and text or hang out with another person. And when i ask about it you jump down my throat like i did something wrong. And then you act as if nothing even happened and then you get all upset when i start holding back things. I cant take thus crap anymore
I started to treat you like you treat me and i clearly see that it upsets you bad and so i stop. And then i comfort you and bottle up my emotions cause even though you say you want me to show you and tell you your never there to listen and you act like you don't care. You say that you do but you don't show that you do.
Actions or words. We were suppose to help each other not hurt one another.. I make you have to sneak around and you make me have to bottle everything up. There a point in my life where i have to stop and see the picture.... You point blank told me that you don't love me like you use to. That was what made me realize you gave up on me " said Jim
" I'm sorry " mumbled Jessie
Jim gets up and starts to leave and the doctor says " don't unwrap that bandage come back in a week".
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2 days later Jessie finds Jim laying dead with a note that read
" you were my life and you lied to me and hurt me. My mistake was believing you when you said i was your everything "
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