Imagines ; Kellin Quinn ♡

He Sends You to Get Help

A/N: Hi loves. I'm still open and up for requests to be sent of Imagines to write. Feel free and I'll be happy to write them or certain situations. This imagine was requested by xxNewGhostxx 💜 she's super nice and I really hope that you become more confident with your writing and make some imagines. (: And this inspired me to also incorporate some of my own thoughts and opinions off of what's going on my life right now also. So thank you. Thank you for requesting and letting me also express my thoughts and feelings. (:

You were sitting with Kellin on the couch watching TV. He had his arm around you and kissed your cheek which made you smile. You were thinking about your life and where you are now. With him. But when you weren't with him you would always be thinking about what he was doing, where he was, or who he could be talking to. Even though you trust him there are always those instincts. You started to think about how he would find someone better than you. How he deserves someone less fucked up. Someone who knows what they're doing with their life. Someone who knows how to love someone right. Someone who doesn't fuck shit up all the time. And the thoughts continued. Even though you were sitting next to the most amazing guy you've met, your demons still always would remind you of how he would find someone better. How you'd never be good enough. And it broke you. Your whole mood changed in an instant. Kellin was still watching TV but you saw him look at you out of the corner of your eye. He kissed you on the cheek again. You lightly smiled but didn't look at him.

"What's wrong baby?" He asked you concerned.

"Nothing love." You slightly smiled and then looked at him. You admired his gorgeous eyes and the way his black hair shaped his face so nicely. He made you so happy. He adjusted himself to face you and turned the TV down.

"(Y/N) what's really wrong. You can tell me. I know it's not nothing. You know I'm always here for you. You're not alone in this." He grabbed your hand and intertwined your fingers with his. You sighed.

"Kellin. I really, really, really like you. You make me feel so amazing and give me butterflies. You say you're not good for me but all I see in you is the good. You make me feel amazing. I just. I just feel like I'm not good enough for you. I feel like I'm annoying you all the time. I don't even know why you like me really. I'm ugly, I'm gross, I'm disgusting, I'm fat.. The list just goes on." You stopped trying not to break down in front of him. Your eyes were watering but you couldn't look him in the eyes.

"(Y/N) how can't I like you. You're everything I want. I can talk to you like we're best friends but I can also flirt with you. You're amazing. I can't believe you'd think all of those things about yourself. You're absolutely amazing and beautiful. Inside and out." He rubbed his thumb over your palm as your hands were still intertwined.

"But you're going to find someone better. Someone who can make you happy. Someone who you won't ever bail on. Someone who will make you feel amazing. Someone who isn't fucked up in the head. And is confident with themselves and their body. I can't be that Kellin. I don't love myself. I get too attached, and too attached too quickly. That first day when we met and you showed me how much you cared about me, I couldn't believe it. I grew so attached to you so quickly. You make me feel so amazing and I wish I could make you feel the way you make me feel.. I'm not smart. I'm not a good kisser. I'm not anything special. And I know you'll find someone out there who can make you feel like the world. I can't give that to you as much I want to be." You finished before crying into your hands. Kellin shushed you and hugged you.

"Kellin. I have these stages where I get so happy and then it gets ripped away. The slightest thing can change my whole mood. I get stages of depression so randomly. Some days I'll be so happy and then other days I just want to kill myself. I feel like I'm not good enough. And I don't know if I ever will be. I'm insecure. I'm insecure with my self and my appearance. I care too much and get attached. I'm so sorry I can't be what you want me to be.." You continued to cry into his shoulder. He pulled away and his eyes started to water.

"(Y/N) don't ever say that. You are what I want. I love you. I care about you. And I'm going to help you. I'm going to help you through this. You're not alone and I'm not letting you go. You mean the world to me and nothing will change that. I love you for who you are, here and now. I won't ever not care about you. Everyone has their flaws. Your flaws are what makes you, you. Makes you human. None of us are perfect. I love you for who you are here and now. I'm not going anywhere." Kellin says as he kisses you. He pecked your lips deeply for a long time. And then you pulled him into a long hug.

"I love you Kellin. I really needed that. You're amazing." You said as you were still hugging him. He squeezed you tighter and then pulled you away to kiss your lips again. You are so lucky to have someone like Kellin in your life. He cared for you and loved you no matter what. No matter how damaged or broken you were.

"Come on. Let's lay down." He got up and let out his hand to help you up. You smiled and took his hand as he led you into the bedroom. He plopped down on the bed and you plopped down next to him. You were both just looking at each other and you couldn't help but smile. He kissed your forehead as he played with your hair.

"I'm not letting you go. I'm not giving up on you. I won't give up on you if you promise not to give up on me okay?" Kellin moved you over so he could spoon you. He pulled the blankets over you and put his arm around you.

"I promise." You smiled to yourself.

"Everything's going to be okay. Nothing lasts forever love. And you're never alone." Kellin replied as he kissed your neck.

"You're amazing. I love you so much. Thank you for not giving up on me." You turned to face him and kissed him as he cupped your cheeks. ❤️