Imagines ; Kellin Quinn ♡

You See Him

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You and your best friend just got in a fight and you find what you can to help yourself feel better. Your best friend always third wheels you and whenever you hang out with her, her boyfriend has to come and you feel so invisible and so excluded. It just makes you even more depressed than you already are from your break up with Kellin Quinn. You miss him so much even though you're positive he doesn't miss you and has already moved on. That's the worst part. And you always try to have him come over when you get third wheeled and he always bails. You're used to it by now, but you always have that little bit of hope. Hope of feeling better, hope of maybe some affection.. So you always decide to turn to drinking, smoking, cutting. You decided to hit up Kellin and ask for some smoking paper. One because you want to see him, two you're fucked up, and three cause you need some. Kellin smokes weed like all the time so you figured he'd have some. So after leaving your best friends house after feeling completely ignored, you walk to Kellin's house as you're balling your eyes out. It was 6pm when you left her house, still cloudy outside. You walk down to 2nd street and walk to his house. You wipe your eyes and take a deep breath as you knock on the door. He opens it and you gave him a big fake smile.

"Hi." You said as you gave him a half smile.

"Hey." He stepped out and gave you a hug as he saw you. You took it in and closed your eyes during the hug. You missed him. He pulled away and it made you sad. You both just stood there as you looked at the ground.

"What's wrong (y/n)?" He said as you escaped from your fixated gaze at the sidewalk.

"Nothing, can I get that paper." You looked back up to him as you put your hands in your pockets.

"(Y/n), what's wrong. Your mascara is running and your eyes are red and watery." He replied as he wiped under your eyes with his thumb. You took a deep breath trying not to break down in front of him.

"Why do you care?" You said as your eyes started to water, staring up to the sky.

"What do you mean? Why wouldn't I care? Remember when I kissed your scars and told you not to do that again?" He replied with a frustrated face as he looked down at your wrists and tried to grab your arm. You moved away.

"Kellin, that was before. You don't care what's going on in my life. You don't even know where I live or what's going on. You only did that because you felt bad, because you felt guilty. Why wouldn't you care? Because you always bail whenever I ask you to hang out. You're not there for me. You sound annoyed whenever I text you so I stopped. No one cares about me." You said as tears fell down your face that you were trying so hard to hold back. He hugged you as you wrapped your arms around him.

"I bail because I'm busy or tired or have to work, you know that. I try my best to hang out with you when I can. I'm sorry I'm not well showing my emotions but I try. I do care about you, I just have to hold back for myself. okay?" He said as he lightly scrunched a fist full of your hair. You lightly smiled at his gesture.

"Kellin. I miss you so much." You took a deep breath before crying again.

"Hey. It's okay. I miss you too (y/n) I just gotta hold back for myself. You know being in a relationship gave me so much anxiety." He said. You rolled your eyes at his lies but decided to ignore it. You squeezed him again as you put your head in the crook of his neck taking him in. You pulled away and he went inside and then came back out with the paper within 5 minutes.

"How are you getting home?" He asked concerned as he handed you the paper.

"Don't worry about me, I'll see you around okay?" You replied as you took it, put it in your pocket and began to back up slowly.

"Hey, no come here." Kellin grabbed you and pulled you to him and pressed his lips against yours. You were so shocked.

Kellin just kissed me? You thought. What the hell is going on.

You didn't care. You kissed him back with everything you had bottled up inside you. You put your fingers through his hair as he pulled you to him no space between the two of you, his hands around your waist. He pulled away and you met eyes, he pulled away and smiled at you. You gave a big sigh and put your head against his lightly closing your eyes as your hands were wrapped around his neck.

"I'll give you a ride home okay?" He replied kissing your forehead and taking your hand in his.

"Okay." You smiled and he kissed you once more for a long time.

You smiled through this kiss at his gesture immediately feeling 100 times better.