Carter P.O.V
I woke up with anesthetic my body was so sore it felt like a pipe had been shoved into my chest
"Carter...."my mom kissed me I smiled at her
"Mom"I looked at her face
"Carter you've been sleep for a while"She held my hand
"How long?"I asked
"Two weeks"She said
"Wow really....but I feel so great"I smiled she smiled back at me I heard sobbing I looked through the glass window to see Hayes mother and dad along with Nash his mother was crying hard we made eye contact she smiled at me and walked away.
"Mom what's wrong with everyone?"I asked my mom face dropped
"It's a long story baby"She sat next to me I sat up
"Mom.....?"I asked
"Carter.....Hayes is died..."The words slowly came out her mouth I could no longer feel my body there were no tears and no heart beat I was just emotional-less I blinked
"Mom.....that's not a funny joke"I looked at her
"Carter he's dead his funeral is next week"she said I nodded asking her to leave the room as soon as she left I busted out in tears I cried so hard my face was hurting
"Don't cry"a voice said I turned my head to see Nash
"Nash I'm sorry......."I cried even harder
"You have nothing to be sorry for it was his decision"Nash replied
"What do you mean?"I asked Nash handed me a paper leaving the room it said read on the front I opened it
Dear Carter
I don't know how to start these love notes so don't laugh at me. Carter if your reading this right now you have to know you mean the world to me and I'm so sorry I hurt you and left this way please don't cry.....your to beautiful to cry I'm sorry.....i love you I love the way you smile when you laugh and how your hair does its own thing in the morning Carter I love how when you chew food your jaw makes a funny shape and how your tears come down your face softly I guess it's true when angels cry it's still beauty....I know it's cheesy but Carter Williams I am in love with you....I am so lucky to have you o God....I'm lucky to have you before I got surgery I came in your room and kissed your lips the last kiss we will have....remember that one last gift...well it was my lungs you deserve to live Carter with my lungs in your chest you breathe for me you don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world but you do have a say so in who hurts you and I liked my choice....I hope you like yours okay Carter?
"Okay.........
Ps....ill always love you even if it takes
My last breath
~Hayes
