Camp -minizerk AU-

Euologies

Simon's P.O.V.

Today was the day of Josh's funeral. The day that we get to celebrate his life and his death. To remember his beautiful smile, his glimmering eyes that would change colors every now and then, his hair that worked perfectly with his face, all the way to how he would shuffle his feet when he was anxious.

Today is the day that I get to remember our love, to remember the night that I had lost my virginity. To the most important, most amazing person in the whole entire universe.

"Are you ready?" Tobi asked, it being my turn to go and say a few words.

"Yeah, I think so." I said as I got up and went to the podium.

I stood up there with everyone that could come looking at me. All the guys were there, supporting me and especially Josh.

"Today we are celebrating an amazing, beautiful persons life. Josh and I, we were more than friends, we were more than boyfriends, we were soulmates. Josh could make me happy no matter what. I feel so lucky that I was able to date a guy like him.

Now I guess is time that is should just say it. Josh was treated like shit once his father died. He was neglected and turned to be like his mom, but somehow he overcame that. Something a lot of people normally can't do. I applaud Josh for that. To be able to overcome something that big is such a big deal. I am so proud of you Josh. He did that all just for me. So that we could be together in harmony.

I'm going to tell you the truth, I miss him so much. I wish that I could turn back time and change what happened. So that we can spend more time together, but I can't. So I just look back at all of the memories, all of the amazing moments that we have had together. To every little laugh, to every fight. I will forever remember Josh, for his beautiful eyes, for his smile, but most of all his personality. I lied to Josh so many times but he stayed with me.

The last words that Josh said was I love you, something not a lot of people get to say before they die. I remember watching his rose red cheeks, turn ice cold. All of the pain in the world came to me. I felt broke, lost, confused, but then I remembered that Josh left me with something that is better than anything, he left me the most happy man in the world. I was blessed being able to know Josh, I've never met anyone who cares so much. Thank you Josh, for everything. I love you too." I said trying my hardest to not cry.

I sat back down next to Tobi as he just hugged me.

I truly love you Josh.

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