Camp -minizerk AU-

Josh's Letter

Josh's P.O.V.

(Before the second year of camp)

I went to the doctor to find out what was going on with me. When I was little I had a thyroid problem, I ended up having to have surgery and I had lost a lot of weight. The weird part is, is that all of these symptoms are coming back.

I had finally got to the doctor and sat in the waiting room.

I had walked in to where I was examined. They had to do all different test and all different things.

I then finally got my results. Which did not end so well.

"Joshua, you have thyroid cancer. You are pretty far into it, but if we start chemotherapy right now, you will most likely be alright." That was pretty much the whole entire idea of what the doctor had said.

I knew that I wouldn't be able to afford it. I could barely afford this appointment. Anyway what would've chemo done anyway? Let me live a little longer? I'm just going to live my life a full as possible.

(At Camp)

As Simon and I sat on the rock I knew what I had wanted to do. We had done so. It was probably one of the greatest moments of my life. I had never been so happy, so joyful. J had totally forgot about everything.

Then we got into the fight and things started to go downhill. My weight was dropping drastically and so was my mood. Everything was doubled. I just wanted to end it all. Get it all over with. It all felt like torture. It all felt wrong. So I sat down and wrote. I wrote my eulogy to Simon. To tell him how much I truly love him, to tell him I'm sorry, to tell him that I will always love him, but to tell him how much he truly meant to me.

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Simon's P.O.V.

I opened up the note that Josh had wrote to me.

I was now sitting outside, where Josh had gone when he had left me. When he had found out that I was lying about my amnesia. I felt his warmth around me. It could feel his smile and I could see his beautiful eyes. I just wish that it was real. I wish that I could actually see him. I wish that I could hold him close and tell him how much I love him. How I would always protect him. How much I love his laugh and the way he would play with his toes when he would laugh. I loved all the little details about him. I loved to laugh with him, to play games with him, even just to eat with him. I wouldn't even care if we were on our phones, just knowing that he was there made me happy.

I had finally opened up the note fully and wiped away my tears.

I then started to read it, hearing him say it to me, like one of those cheesy movies.

-so I am guessing that I am dead. I am guessing that I have either killed myself or had died due to cancer.

Well enough about me, this is my eulogy to Simon Minter. My form of saying goodbye. To tell him how much he truly meant to me. To tell him how much I care and how I will always love him. I will wait for you Simon Minter. Oh how I promise that I will wait for you. You are the miracle to my life, someone who I truly do not deserve, but some how I still got you.

Simon, I am going to tell you the truth and tell anyone else who reads this. I truly wasn't who I brought myself out to be. I was nothing like my mom, I was my dad mostly. Somehow I had kind of lost that, I had lost myself. I didn't really hook up with a bunch of people, and the whole truth is, is that I lost my virginity to you Simon, no one else but you. I am so glad that I got to from you, you are my everything.

For the longest time I had lost myself. I was lost and scared. Scared of everything, my mom was sick with AIDS, and the truth is she didn't even give a shit. My life was a shit hole ever since my father had died. I would be constantly blamed by my grandfather. Everything in my life was horrible. Then you came around. My guardian angel, my true hero, my soulmate. You showed me a whole new world, you had found me. You showed my the bright side of life.

I remember when I had ran away from you, I am actually writing this right after our fight. The reason why I am doing it now, is because I know I am dead. I know that I am a goner. But what I really want to say, is that even through all of your lies to me, I had stayed with you. I had loved you, I still love you. I realized that is what true love is. When you stay with someone no matter what had happened.

I'm sorry that our relationship wasn't filled with romance and all of those things. I am sorry that for the longest time we were just friends and even towards the end we were just fighting. But somehow I still enjoyed every single moment of it. I love you.

Never forget that I loved you. Never forget all of the amazing moments that we had shared together. But don't let this ruin your life. Don't ruin everything because I am gone. I will always be there right next to you, supporting you the whole entire way. I am now your guardian angel. I will support you through everything. I will love you no matter how much wrong you do. You are the sun to my universe. I will forever love you and protect you.-

I then felt people sitting next to me holding me close. All of the friends that I now have. To support me through this all.

I then looked at the back to see something.

"Guys, there is something for you. It says, 'to all of my friends. Tobi you were one of my best friends in the whole entire universe, you helped me through so much and I am so happy that we got to resolve things. Harry, deal with the he fact that Vik doesn't love you, he loves Tobi, let him go move on. Vik go love Tobi, stop lying to yourself. Then Ethan, I didn't really get to know you, but what I do know is that you are going to protect Simon and everyone else. From any pain, from sadness, from anything. Keep them safe. I love you all so much.'" I said as they all just laughed and smile.

I will always remember you Josh, I will always remember you.