Stuck In Time

Chapter 14-Part 1

Finally. It was the weekend. 

Getting out of bed, I rose my hands above my head and stretched. I felt a lot better after Mack left last night, and so today I’m using it to my full advantage. 

I’m going to visit my dad’s grave.

I quietly shut the front door of my house, buttoning up my coat. Walking along the empty streets, Autumn breeze blowing my hair, chills forming on my skin, I was content. When was the last time I’ve done this? 

Before everything started. 

Realizing this now, my life seemed normal. I had friends, my grades were pulling up, and two great boys that love me.

Now that I had time to think, I really wanted to ponder on these two men. What if some miracle happened and I would have to choose between the two? I mean, I know Mack likes me, and I like him. But, what I don’t know is if Jeremy likes me. 

I mean, he’s shown signs, hasn’t he? Question is, do I care?

Yes. I care too much. 

I admit it. Seeing him again has made me feel complete. With regaining my memory, my life has come back. My normal life. And that normal life, Jeremy was in it. He’s always been in it. He belongs in it. 

I crossed the street, pulling my jacket closer.

I knew I still liked Jeremy. I knew it in my heart. But did I still love him?

No. I didn’t.

It took so long, but I had moved on from him. The pain he left me with, it took so long to recover. After he left, nothing but sadness had come. The heartbreak, the accident, it was all so overwhelming. Now he’s back, and the happiness has returned. But, he’s from the past. And living my new life, the life of remembrance, not forgotten...

Do I really want to live in the past? 

Which brings me to Mack. How I love Mack. He’s sweet, funny, hot, just...utterly perfect. From the second I saw him I knew we had something. Possibly more than something. 

But I still have yet to figure out, are together? Is the reason he’s not asking me out is because he doesn’t feel the same way? That I’m a stand in?

Mack makes me feel different. Special. Something that Jeremy can’t bring. Jer and I are so alike...we fit. Mack and I...are so different. Yet we’re like twins. We both have the same qualities, we like the same things..it’s almost too good to be true. But he’s more calm and sweet, someone to hold me down when I’m speeding up, someone to pick me up when I’ve fallen down. No jokes. All truth.

All love.

As I pass the streets of our small town, I watch the other people waver around me, busily trying to catch up with their crazy lives. That’s just it, the craziness. If the world stopped, just for a second, and breathed, wouldn’t it be such a better place? To get the answers when we thought. To see joys some do not. To stay in love. 

Maybe grow a garden. Write a book. Cook a full dinner.
We’d have time to do things we usually don’t. We’d see the beauty in life. The creativity, the color, the happiness. 

It doesn’t fade away. 

As I finally made it to the cemetery, my legs picked up their speed. I felt excited to see my dad, the biggest part of him that still remains, and hoped to get answers. Or just to talk.

I liked talking. 

*Whew! OK! I hope you guys appreciate this, cause I really wanna go to bed. My throat is killing me. Again:(.

So hoooow did you like it? I would have written the cemetery scene, but I just can’t. My body is going on sleepy mode. But I really tried to write this chapter with heart. Now that she’s going to face her dad, she’s ready for her answers. About her memory, her true love, blah blah blah. And then the drama starts

*Gets popcorn* OK! tell me who you think you like more, Mack or Jeremy! They are both reallly hot hehe! I’ll try putting a pic up of them! Ok so I’m gonna go now. 

Luff you all!