Asymmetrical

i

I wish you were here now,
Sitting next to me,
Listening to my lame tales
That people are too busy to hear.

You would twine your hands with mine
And give it a light squeeze,
But you have no idea how much
That light squeeze affects me.

When the world comes tumbling down
Upon me and chokes me,
You are the breath of fresh air I long
That engulfs me with oxygen again.

I gaze at my phone endlessly,
Waiting for you to return my calls,
The twelve messages I left,
That make me seem so small.

I know I'm not entirely loyal,
But I know I'm getting there,
And I do not blame you for
Leaving me all by myself.

Please don't lose faith in me,
You're the first one who
Truly trusted my heart,
And looked after me.

I fear someday you will too
Think of me as a lost cause,
And leave me
For someone else.

-From a girl with commitment issues she's trying to deal with.