Conversations (gxg): Lemonade and Other Gay Shit

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"Hey, Humphreys. Please let me explain—shit. You cried. I made you cry. Fuck. I'm so sorry—"

"Please don't touch me."

"Are you angry?"

"No. Just confused. I just... I can't wrap my head around it. I don't understand what's going on. I trust you, Sar, you know I do. But you're testing me."

"Nothing happened, Humphreys. I promise. Fuck. I'm sorry. We were studying and they started talking about naming compounds and it was so boring and I fell asleep. And nothing happened between me and Athena, I promise. We barely even talked. The venue was just at her place, but I barely talked to her. Please believe me."

"Why'd you have to lie to me, then? Do you know how suspicious that made you look? You're making it hard for me to believe you."

"I didn't want you to know I was at Athena's."

"Why? What happened to no secrets?"

"I knew it'd bother you, so I didn't tell you."

"Because keeping it a secret's better than telling me the truth? Sarah, we're in a damn relationship. That's not how this is supposed to work."

"I'm sorry. It won't happen again."

"Go to sleep. You have finals tomorrow. We'll talk after."

"Thalia—"

"I'll sleep on the sofa. Goodni—good morning."

"No. We're fixing this tonight. Okay? I'm not sleeping with you pissed at me."

"What do you want, then? I have nothing to say, Sarah. I don't know what to say."

"I love you. You can ask anyone in Chemistry, and they'd confirm that nothing happened. It looks bad, I know, and I'm so sorry. But nothing happened. Please believe me, baby."

"Are you lying to me?"

"No. I'm telling you the truth."

"..."

"..."

"I cancelled our trip on Sunday. I don't want to go when things are weird. Maybe some other time."

"Shit. Wait. We can work this out, okay?"

"Baby, I'm really not in the mood."