Wait

The concert

"The astonishing purity of pain, how it will not be mixed with any other sensation." ~Charles Baxter

With the concert slowly creeping up, days and nights were spent tirelessly rehearsing. The members barely had time to eat and sleep, which meant Taehyung and Hoseok only saw each other at the end of the day. One particular day Taehyung drug himself home from the studio along with the other members, but he didn't feel very good. His entire body ached from head to toe and his stomach churned. He slowly made it to his room, letting himself fall face first into the soft mattress. Eyes drifting closed, he let out a long heavy sigh. Luckily the next day was their last day off before the concert, but Taehyung had a doctors appointment. Pure exhaustion crept in as his mind numbed from the aches and he slowly began to fall into sleeps awaiting embrace. Fate however, had other plans. Just as he'd drifted off to dream land, he felt bile creeping up his throat. In a flash he'd rushed to the bathroom and forcefully emptied his stomach. Once he'd finally finished, he hugged the toilet with a wide and fearful gaze 'why am I puking? I haven't eaten anything today... Somethings not right..' Quickly standing to his feet, he held onto the counter for balance as a wave of dizziness rushed over him. A soft groan of pain left his lips as he moved towards the sink to brush his teeth. Pausing to gaze at his reflection Taehyung found himself frowning. After a moment of thought, he left the bathroom only to be greeted by a smiling Hoseok "you didn't take a shower?" Taehyung shook his head "nah I was just using the toilet. I'll let my hyung shower first" he grinned at his boyfriend, who pulled him into a hug "alright. Thank you darling... I'll be quick" he pecked Taehyung's nose with a smile as he continued "when I get back we're cuddling and watching a movie because I haven't seen you at all lately" Taehyung nodded in agreement with a tired smile "it's a date" after a moments hesitation Hoseok pulled away from the embrace and headed to the bathroom, leaving Taehyung alone in their bedroom with a heavy heart and a sinking feeling in his gut. Sighing, he decided to go ahead and pack a few things that Hoseok wouldn't notice missing. After packing a few small items, he slid the suitcase back underneath the bed.

Several minutes later Hoseok emerged from the bathroom, smiling "your turn angel!" Taehyung blushed, making his way over to the bathroom with clothes in hand "I'll be out quick" Hoseok nodded as the other walked past him and shut the door for privacy. Soon he was standing in the shower, allowing the hot water to rinse his worries away. Thoughts of his time with BTS drawing to an end were washed away down the drain as he tried to keep a blank and peaceful mindset. Minutes later he emerged, dressed in his most comfortable pajamas, and instantly laid on their bed with a groan "I'm seriously tired!" Hoseok chuckled, setting up his lap top before snuggling up with Taehyung underneath the covers. Unfortunately, Taehyung fell asleep only thirty minutes into the movie his lover had put on. Hoseok smiled fondly, brushing some fringe away from his forehead and decided to turn the movie off to sleep as well. The couple ended up sleeping throughout the remainder of the day and all night. In fact, Taehyung had slept so soundly that he only awoke when his alarm went off at six the next morning. Quickly shutting it off, and tiredly rolling out of bed, he cursed quietly. Stupid doctors appointment... He didn't bother showering or looking decent, he dressed in sweat pants with a long sleeve, beanie and face mask before quickly leaving the dorm while the others slept. Luckily, his trusted manager was already waiting for him in the van and he smiled tiredly as he climbed in with a quiet greeting. Since both of them were exhausted from the busy schedules, the journey was spent in comfortable silence.

Finally arriving to the hospital, Taehyung took a seat in a private room while the nurse asked him the usual questions "any unusual pain?" Taehyung shook his head "no. I've been tired from dance practice but nothing abnormal. Except... I threw up yesterday but I hadn't eaten all day." The nurse scribbled a note down and bowed "alright Mr. Kim, shall we get started on your tests?" Taehyung nodded, eager to get back to his warm boyfriend and soft bed. After easily taking the same tests and exams, he awaited for the verdict nervously. When the door opened to reveal his doctor Taehyung caught a glimpse of something in his eyes that made his heart deflate instantly "it's gotten worse hasn't it?" The doctor sighed softly, taking a seat "I'm afraid so. It was slowing down, but suddenly it's flaring back up and spreading quickly. You need to start chemo and radiation as soon as you can" Taehyung nodded, frowning "twelve more days until I quit. I'll start treatments when I get back home. Is there any hope of beating this?" The doctor shrugged "right now the odds are against you 70/30 but as I've said before, the chemo and radiation should freeze it. Unless it spreads too much... But  don't loose hope" Taehyung nodded slowly, processing his words carefully before they said their goodbyes and he headed back to the dorm.