Afraid To Fall

Chapter Nineteen

Hola guys. Sorry about the sucky last chapter. :c I feel bad that it was sucky, but so long!! Ugh. Hopefully this chapter will be better. I feel awful! v.v I love you guys for reading this and the next chapter is the last. c: Yep, I'm finishing the story! Woo. There won't be able to be a sequel. Sorry guys. The story really ends here, but I have stuff to add to it. And I'll put it in the next chapter. Thanks, babes. Love you! .xx

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I haven't came out of the house once. I've refused to eat, sleep, shower, speak... Anything. The only things in my mind are the memories. All of the good and bad times I've had with Elizabeth. The times I couldn't see her because we were both busy. I remember everything. Her smile, her laugh, her movements. I just can't clear my mind off of her. And I kind of don't want to. I just want to hold on to what I have left of her. She's the most important thing in my life. I really can't lose her.. 

I swooped my curls back as Gemma slowly entered the room. "Harry?" she asked. I just stared at her. "Harry, please talk to me," she begged, sitting at the end of my torn up bed. I just shook my head. My throat hurts from all the crying and if I try to talk again, I'll just cry even more. Why bother? 

"She's in a better place, Haz." Gemma placed her hand in mine and squeezed it gently before returning to the door. I watched as she left. 

Be strong, Harry.

Forget about me..

I love you, Harry. 

I'm happy. You should be too.

I imagined her talking to me. She was currently sitting in my computer chair. "E-Elizabeth?" I whispered, seeing the image more clearly. "Hey, Harry!" she said cheerfully, jumping onto the bed in front of me. I felt her hands grip mine as she smiled her bright smile. "I missed you," she said, leaning her face towards mine. 

Our lips met and I could feel everything. The sparks, her soft lips.. I even tasted her strawberry lip balm. Her arms wrapped around my neck as I tugged her thin body on my lap. "Harry," she mumbled against my lips. "Yes?" Her eyes gazed into mine as her smile faded. "Are you not happy without me?" she asked softly. 

"N-no! Hell no! I could never be happy without you!" She frowned. "I love you, Harry, but you have to let go. I'm not the only girl in this world. I'm nothing special. Please, just be happy," she begged. I sighed and crushed my lips on hers. Her tiny fingers fisted my hair as our tongues fought for dominance. 

And then it all faded.. Everything went away in a flash. "E-Elizabeth?" I called out, looking around the dimly lit room. "Elizabeth!?" I screamed loudly. I jolted from my bed and began throwing, pushing, and hitting things as I looked for her. I had finally thrown the lamp at the wall and as it shattered to a million pieces, I fell onto my knees and snapped back to reality. 

My knees were stinging as the red substance stained the white carpet below me. I punched at the ground, collecting glass particles sticking themselves into my hand. Blood began to drip from my knuckles as I continued to hit the glass on the floor. I needed to feel something. 

"Elizabeth!" I screamed as I buried my face in my bloody hands. Mum screeched at the sight of all the blood on the carpet and probably my trembling body. "Harry, shh," she whispered in my ear. My face was buried in her chest as she rubbed my back comfortably. "Sh-she left me, mum," I stuttered out. 

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I was looking at myself in the mirror as I took out my dad's old guns. This will be perfect. Just one shot and I can end it all. I pointed the gun to my head when Gemma walked in. "Harry!" she screamed, covering her mouth. I bit my lip and lowered the gun, setting it on the counter. "Gem.." She backed away from me.