one shots // phan

it will rain

Word count: 727

If you ever leave me baby
Leave some morphine at my door

You said you had to. That you had to leave.

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have
We don't have it anymore

I begged and you refused. You said I couldn't take back what I'd done.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor

I said I'd do anything. You gave me one more chance.

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
To keep you by my side
To keep you from walking out the door

Everything was okay for a few days. Not everything was back to normal, but that's okay. At least I had you back for now.

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you baby

I keep telling you how much you mean to me.

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you baby

You just nod your head and give me a small smile. I know it's hard but I'd love to hear your voice again.

Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

I've always tried my best with first impressions. Especially with your parents.

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye

But they've always hated me. From the very beginning. It's like they could sense I was going to break your heart.

Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Saying, 'There goes my little boy,
Walking with that troublesome guy

You never could persuade them into acting at least a little decent around me. I can still remember all the hateful looks and rude words.

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Ooh, but for you darling watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'll try

I took all their words and locked them away deep inside me. I wasn't going to let them get to me.

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine

You always asked if I was okay after we visited them. I smiled and told you I was fine. That their words didn't hurt me. All that mattered was that you loved me.

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you baby

Now that I'm thinking back on those things, I realize I would much rather indure your parents than lose you.

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Now I realize that all I ever wanted was your happiness. Even if it meant losing you.

Oh, don't just say, goodbye
Don't just say, goodbye

So now you've come to me and said that this just doesn't feel right. That we're not the same anymore.

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right

I told you that I loved you and that it was okay.

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you baby

You said you were sorry and I said you didn't need to apologize. That if anybody needed to apologize it was me.

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you baby

That's when you softly kissed my lips one last time and gave me a small smile, wishing me the best with my life.

I smiled with tears brimming in my eyes and told you I was sorry for causing you so much pain. You just shook your head and said you wouldn't trade it for the world.

And with tears streaming down both our faces you said the eight words that would break me, but also stay with me forever in my heart.

"I will always love you, Daniel James Howell."

And with that, you walked away.

Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Yeah so that broke me. I tried adding the song on the side but it wouldn't let me. If you don't know the song its 'It Will Rain' by Bruno Mars. Okay bye