one shots // phan

dear dan

Dear Dan,

Oh my god I miss you so much. It's gotten to the point where I cry while looking at pictures of us.

I'm sitting in my room listening to music and all I want is for you to be here. I know it sounds like I'm writing a fucking love letter but I'm not.

I mean I do love you. Just not in that way, but I honestly don't think I've ever missed someone this much.

Except maybe when I was a little kid and I stayed with a friend and I missed my parents. That doesn't count.

This. Oh this is something I've never felt before and it's awful. My stomach is flipping and my heart is beating so fast and the tears are just streaming down my face.

Is this what love is? Is it platonic or romantic or both.

When all you want is for someone to be with you and hold you and just be there.

I'm so scared that I may be falling for you. And damn what a plot twist would that be.

I'm more than likely not going to send this to you. I don't want to make things awkward, and you're with Cat anyway so what chance would I ever have.

The one person I want to talk to about this the most and you're the one causing the problem.

This may just be some silly crush that will go away in a few months. But damn I feel like I'm in love and now you'll never read this because I'm too shy to ever act upon it.

It hurts and it hurts so fucking bad and I'll always remember this night as the night I realized I may be in love with you.

Well shit. I guess I'll go. I love you more than you'll ever know.

                                                                                 Love Phil

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This is actually based off a letter I've written to a friend of mine a while ago and im not going to say any names. This is actually me discovering the feelings for that specific person so its not contradictory necessarily, just me realizing it. So this is really personal to me but I felt like it'd make a great one shot so I hope you like it :) -kaitlyn