January 2015 omg it's another new year and I want to start fresh and not get in anymore drama. I still didn't want to go to school only because I would have to see Julio after we had not awkward conversation. All I kept thinking was if he was at least going to say hi or sup to me. I don't believe he's going to since he's with Lauren. Clarissa came up to me asking me all these questions since I did not want to text her back during winter break. Since I stopped being Mary and the other girls friends I wasn't afraid to talk to other people that I didn't usually talk to because I had no reason too. Since it was a new year I wanted to make more new friends or at least be nice and say hi to them. It felt amazing that I was being myself people liked me more once I stopped being friends with the girls. Ever since the new year started Clarissa has been very rude to me lately and I wasn't okay with it but I let it go because I knew she would talk about it. What I dislike the most was that every time in English class Sergio and his friends would sit at the table right in front of us and she wanted to really try this year to be with Sergio so everyday just to get his attention she would always make fun of me or my friend Andrea. I always had a feeling that Clarissa probably didn't even really want to be my best friend again she only did it because she knew I talked to Sergio a lot. Me and Andrea wouldn't take her bullshit and we always get her back. I knew Andrea since fifth grade I always called her shorty because she was short she was still sweet and hilarious to everyone unless she did not like you then she would be a bitch to you. Since it was the first month of a new year no drama or anything happened to me. Here comes February and I know something will happen between me and Clarissa because I had enough of her bullshit.
Additionally, love was about to be in the air because it was that month of Valentine's Day. Nobody was excited unless you were with someone, which was not me at all because I didn't care if I was with someone or not. Clarissa was desperate to try to have a valentine I told her not to worry about it but she didn't listen to me she never did but at the end I was always right. I planned to get my friends a little gift for Valentine's Day. We all planned to go to the dollar dance together and just hang out because at the same time we thought we were to old to keep going but it was also fun because we would get in for free. Every time we had a new dollar dance Ms. Hale would pick one of her English class to work and help out because that's how we got money to go for the field trips that the teachers planned for us. The last few weeks Clarissa was still acting like a total bitch to me and everyone. It was like one day she would be sweet and unique then the next day she would be rude. Clarissa had a problem that she would point out the bad things about people or the imperfect things about them. She wasn't afraid to speak her mind but when other people talked about her she would just burst down in tears. One day a boy in our science class called her annoying and told her that's why nobody wanted to be with her and that killed her, she ran outside crying and I followed her once I found her I sat down on the floor with her and talked to her to calm her down. Out of nowhere I just had to tell her that's how she made other people feel when she pointed out the worst things about them especially me because I was a her best friend once I told her that she felt so bad about it but since that day she was being nice again and that put me and her in a better mood but I noticed that she started treating me like I was a ghost and every time I tried to talk to her she would turn her head and talk to Andrea or Laila. So I thought that if she did that to me, I would do the same thing back at her and see how she felt about it so I started talking to Sergio, Gurpal and Kimberly. I didn't really talk to them a lot just a simple hi every once in a while.
March 2014
Still Clarissa didn't want to talk to me for some reason every other day she would hang out with Mary and the girls again. I wasn't so happy about it and if she didn't talk to me what was the point of even trying to stop her from going back to them. Andrea and the girls would ask me what happened between us but I would also say I don't know because I didn't know why. So I have Clarissa and I a break I didn't really want to be her best friend anymore because she would also talk behind me back and would make others feel bad about themselves. I knew that I couldn't be best friends with someone how is so cruel. One day I was talking with Laila during our 3rd period class. Our 3rd period class was with Ms. Hale it was an extra reading class for people who needed help and wanted to improve to get a higher score. I was talking to Laila to see who had all the same classes as us so we kept thinking about it and Laila said that we have all classes with Kimberly which was true. I didn't even know because I barely talked to her. So I told Laila that maybe we should start talking her and it was the right thing to do since I wanted to make more friends.
Furthermore, since me and Laila knew Kimberly was in all our classes I just randomly started talking to her. She was just so quiet she probably thought I was crazy or something. Everyday I would say hi to her and one day Laila, me and Kimberly were walking to pe class and I randomly told her she was my best friend. I think she took it as a joke but it wasn't a joke I was serious so everyday I would tell her hi best friend in front of Clarissa and I knew that it was going to get her upset but I wasn't trying to do that I just wanted to have another best friend who doesn't really give a fuck about anything or boys. Kimberly was like that and she was just so cool. Clarissa started noticing that I was becoming more closer to Kimberly so she became closer to Mary and the girls again, I honestly did not care because that was her choice but I know that Mary and the girls would not handle Clarissa for a day because all she does is complain that about things. I would give about one week until Clarissa would start hanging out with me, Andrea, Janessa, Nancy and.....Shirley even though I did not like her still because she was a two faced bitch. But whatever I did not care for not one reason. Friday afternoon it was sunny and warm with a little bit of breeze flowing through my hair before lunch was over Clarissa went up to me and started talking to me again. She looked serious when she came up to me and I stopped to talk to her.
"Hey Alondra, can I talk to you for a second?" Clarissa said in a confused but serious way of tone.
"Yeah sure what's up." I said calmly.
"Hey! Alondra, are you coming with us?" Andrea asked out loud.
"Yeah! I'll be right there." I responded.
"So.... Clarissa what were you going to tell me."
"I just wanted to know if we were still best friends...." Clarissa said sadly.
"Well I don't know because lately you have been treating me so wrong and just ignoring me and talking shit behind my back. See I don't want a best friend who does that or even just cares about herself." I said proudly finally standing up to her.
"So is Kimberly going to be your best friend now?" Clarissa asked.
"Yeah I'm pretty sure she won't treat me wrong like you did." I responded.
Clarissa just made a upset face and ran away crying to the bathroom but I had to do what was right for me and pick somebody who was able to handle me whenever and not talk about me behind my back.
Furthermore, this was where the month ended and the last time I talked to Clarissa after our little talk that we had during lunch.
