October 2015
Another two months went by into the school year and I get to see Kimberly everyday since she get out of school before I did. My feelings for her never changed, not even throughout the summer. Nothing about her changed, not her looks, the style of clothing, and nor her personality which was a good thing. She met a few of my friends that I made at my new school. Although I hung out with her everyday, she never got the memo that I liked her. I gave her hints and some were obvious than others. Even my my new friends could tell that I liked her it was very noticeable. I still didn't have the courage to tell her I liked her but soon I was going to because I couldn't keep it in. Anymore I was also losing other ways of giving her hints. I felt like this was not a phase anymore. My feelings were actual feelings, like feelings that you get when you just see that right person for you and you grow butterflies in our stomach. You can't speak and just turn red. That was me every time I saw her. Everyday was something new with her. I really wanted to tell her I liked her. Everyday when we texted I always said "guess what" but by the time she replied I gave up and I could not do it anymore. I had no motivation to tell her I liked her so I would just play it off and say " nothing". That coming up week when I had a test that we took all week and got dismissed at 10 am. It was okay with me because Kimberly would switch to her next class and she would stop by quickly to say hi. One of the day that we got out early, I was sitting at the green table by the Gatorade machine with my friend Charlotte and we were just laughing so much that we looked like a bright cherry. We heard somebody coming and it was a girl who went to the same school as us, her name was Marisol and I barely got to know her. She sat down and was talking to us and I don't know if she trusted me or just needed to take something off her mind but she told me a lot of her personal secrets, she never told anyone else. Soon we became friends and after school she would hang out with me until Kimberly got out of school or when my mom picked me up. I told Marisol that I had a hug crush on my best friend Kimberly. Marisol thought that it was so cute that I liked my best friend, she asked if I told her that and I said no so Marisol was being generous and said that she is going to help me so I can get with her. Everyday we made all this plans but nothing seemed to work only because Kimberly still didn't get the message. Marisol just always kept telling me "be straight and tell her." And At first that convinced me because who knew what would happen so I agreed with her but after I would see or get near Kimberly I backed out fast because I just couldn't so the more I backed out a lot Marisol said that if I don't tell her soon then she's gonna tell her herself rather I liked it or not because she knew that we were meant to be or at least it was noticeable that I liked her.
Moreover, November came along and Marisol and I were still trying to figure out a plan that can show Kimberly that I like her at least give hints out because I was tired of her not getting it through her thick skull that I liked her, I just wanted to grab her by the head and tell her but the other side of me did not want to tell her because I thought negative. Every time Kimberly stopped by to see even for just a minute Marisol would give me a hint to go for it and tell her before it's too late because we both wondered what if I tell her at the wrong time and she already has a boyfriend which of course would get me so furious. But I put that to the side and focused on Kimberly birthday because it was right around the corner. I thought of an idea to give her a birthday box. The birthday box was wrapped in Royal blue paper with basketball ribbon and inside had all her favorite sweets but in the bottom it had a basketball T-shirt with Stephen Curry on it and I thought she might like it and a few balloons as well. Marisol kept telling me that it would be the perfect time to tell her on her birthday or near almost her birthday but I said no because I was tired of feeling pressured that I had to do something I wasn't ready for but deep down I actually was. It was on a Wednesday and it was after school anybody was barley there because it was semi dark with wind blowing and making the leaves make noises around us. It was Marisol, Kimberly and I and we were all sitting at one of the green tables at school and Marisol was doing these eye movements that was giving me a sign that it was a perfect time to tell Kimberly but I couldn't, the good thing about it was that Kimberly mom called her to get her stuff from the car so that gave me and Marisol the perfect time to know what was the plan. We talked and disagreed but this time a agreed because she had to know now I was tired of keeping it inside me like a secret locked it a metal box and there was no way out unless you had the courage to open it. After Kimberly got back here it happened again my heart was beating really fast but I had no clue why if Marisol was going to tell Kimberly I liked her for me because I could not do it. A little bit after Marisol told Kimberly to sit down because she had to tell her something so she sat down and put her phone down as well. Marisol took a deep breathe and said" Alondra likes you likes you." Kimberly sighed and had a shocked confused face like as she didn't believe it. When I saw her face expression I did not know what to do or say so Marisol kicked my leg from behind and was making a face at me to talk to her after she kicked me Marisol got up and took a walk so I can talk to Kimberly alone. Once she did that it was nothing but silence between us and the good thing was that my mom came just on time when it got awkward to come and pick me and Marisol up from school. I hugged Kimberly and said goodbye and she stayed because she had basketball practice. As I got home I opened my door to my room and I threw my backpack on the floor then I threw myself onto my bed at a horizontal way and lay there thinking about what just happened back at school waiting for her to text me or something. I tried to do a lot of things around the house like clean my room, ask if they need anything, clean the house just a little bit to try to keep my mind off of things until she texted me. Likewise, she finally texted me and it started off with a simple "hi." Then she asked me if it was true about the whole thing that I like her more then a best friend and I was going to be open with her and any questions she had for me. As we talked about it more she finally confessed that she did like me for about a few weeks and once she told me I was filled with happiness but at the same time we had a serious conversation because we were both confessing the truth especially me. After that we stopped with the questions because I needed a break about all this. I felt like though out the rest of the text messages it was awkward but I just went along because I didn't want to make it even more awkward then it already was. The next day when we saw each other at school it was pretty normal but I can see it in her face that she did feel a little awkward and we left it like that all day it was clueless. Then when we both got home we started talking about it again and what we were going to do about all this because I really liked her a lot and she liked me a little. We both decided to give it a chance and try it out between us but because we just randomly got together I asked if it was official between us or was this a type of experiment because if it was I would disagree. She said it was official and so then it was I finally got together with her and my heart started to go back to normal and my butterflies were going away but the only problem was if people like my friends and family were even going to accept me once I got with her or when anybody just saw us together. At the same time I thought it was going to be a bad idea because who knew how she would take it or tell her friends because all her friends I knew since we were little. Everyday since then to me it was a little awkward because she was my best friend I did not know how we would hang out because now I would see her a totally different way because she's my girlfriend. Marisol was so happy that Kimberly and I finally got together and she was also excited that I was finally happy and I didn't have to give out hints anymore.
