January 2016 again another new year with the sun shinning so bright it would your hurt your eyes, to start off with and it's been a month since I got together with Kimberly. I would never get tired of telling people or saying that she was my girlfriend it was the most wonderful thing I could say coming out of my mouth. I can admit at first it was a little awkward because people would just look at us like if we were not meant to be in this world because we could not date people of the same gender but trust me that was going to change. Lately my friends and family always told me that is it just a phase that I'm going threw or just that I'm confused about who I wanted to date but I knew that deep down it was not a phase anymore I really admired her a lot. Everywhere people around my school would look at me I didn't know if it was just because I was dating Kimberly or something but I was not going to let that bother me because I wanted to be the stronger person and not be afraid that I was dating her. About a week or two I started noticing that during my lunch when Kimberly would stop by to see me she would hug me, kiss me or hold my hand or all of them but when she saw somebody that she knew and admittedly she would back away like if she was embarrassed to show that she was going out with me or even when I would walk her to her class it was like once we got near independence area she would let go of my hand real quick and to me that was bullshit because I thought what would be the point of going out with me if you were to embarrassed that you were dating me. Once I dropped her off as I was walking by Marisol, she asked what's wrong and I told her what Kimberly was doing everyday, she said the best way to put a stop to it and talk to her about it, I can admit that was the right thing to do but I couldn't so I just let it slide for a while. I also thought that sooner or later all her friends were going to know because it was going to be noticeable and I wondered if she was going to tell them the truth or just ignore it. Everyday I just couldn't believe that she would be really embarrassed about it not even me I did not care if people saw me differently after I did not care if they would accept me or not this was the choice I wanted to make because everybody always says "always follow your heart." and so I did and this was the choice I wanted to do. Even the teachers seen that we were together but I knew some would not just accept it. I would talk to Marisol about it she would tell me not to worry about it and not to let it affect me in any way. Sooner or later people would ask me what do I identify myself and clearly I would say bisexual some did not understand how I can be both but I was. I put everything a side and stayed focused on Kimberly and I. Last night when Kimberly and I were texting I asked if she was going to tell her friends that we were dating or even her parents at least. She took a while to respond back to me but soon she did respond back and she said "My friends don't need to know unless their find out by themselves and my parents cannot find out because they will me upset with me." once she said that her parents would be pissed off I was wondering why so I went to ask my mom about it and she said that parents that are from Mexico have the hard time that people should date the same gender because they believe that a women and man should be together or married. That made a lot more sense and a really good one too. Lately I hated when my friends would push me or Kimberly to do something that we were not ready yet, I told Kimberly that I would like to take time because I did not want her to feel pressured too. All in all, for a few weeks went by and I have noticed that me and Kimberly were doing really good together and we made all these promises that we would not break unless one of us had a really good reason on why we broke it. I'm going to be honest I love texting Kimberly 24/7 our conversations were great I talked to her more then anyone else we can be texting from the morning to night and never get tired of each other and trust me it was such a great feeling. Throughout our conversation sometimes we had some deep conversation that sometimes I had a hard time talking about it but with her it was way different I could actually trust her and she would keep it a secret but that was okay because this was other ways I still got to know her.
Additionally, I truly loved when Kimberly and I would always say we were going to last because that made me feel so much comfortable because I had such a great feeling that we were going to last. Sometimes people asked me if it was easier to date a girl and it was way easier especially because she's my best friend also. I started noticing that people were starting to look at me differently everyday also because I would be with Kimberly all the time but honestly I did not let that bother for any reason if they had a problem with me they could come up to me and say it to my face. I started noticing that Kimberly would start to be fine with the fact that would be dating a girl or even with me. Sometimes I had a hard time trusting her for many reason because I told her that I was that type of girl that had a hard time believe people or her because of the reasons that I have that I would not want to go into detail but let's just say that two people that treated me like shit always and one of them even told one of my deepest secrets that I could not believe. Kimberly told me not to worry about anything that she was not like that and if she was she would be straight up with me and I appreciate that because that's all I wanted her to tell me. Marisol would always ask me how it's been with Kimberly and I would tell her it was good like really good. For the past few weeks me and Kimberly would get into a fight because that weekend she was going with her dad and brother to Modesto because they were going to a party and I was fine with that because I told her to back the right choice and she said a promise.
