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Ciara pov
I was still sitting in my room. I decided what I was going to do. I made 3 letters.
The first one:
Dear family,
if you are reading this then know I love you. If you see this then that means I am officially in heaven. You guys made my last months of my life great. The reason I did what I did was because I was stressed out. Please stop crying i'm still here in spirit. I want to thank everybody in this note.
Angie- thanks for showing me that you do love me. I know it was rough at first but then you cleaned up and came along.
OG /daddy - thanks for watching me grow up. Thank you for being the best father I could ever ask for and even more. Please don't be mad at me after you ready this. you don't understand what is going on with me. I love you daddy never forget that please.
Tameka- thanks for being my best friend and sister. I know we had our difference but we still made it through it. Please stop crying sissy I will always love you okay just take care of my nieces and nephews that will be coming soon. I didn't do this stuff because of selfish reasons. SEE YOU SOON ;)
Shawn- thanks for being my goofy and protective brother. even though we weren't related by blood I still saw you as my big brother. LOVE YOU MUNCHEZ AND TAKE CARE OF MY SISSY SHE IS GOIGN TO NEED IT.
best for last.
Zae- my favorite cousin/ brother. Zae you been with me since I was little. I want to take the time to thank you. You never got impatient with me. You knew me better than anybody else. You were my daddy figure and brother figure played all into 1. Thank you for being in my life when I needed you the most. I love you the most. It kills me that I wont be able to say my goodbye to you in person because I know you and the rest would try to stop me. Just know i'm in a happy place now and is in peace. This isn't a goodbye its ill see you later alligator.
Love the one and only,
Ciara Quay Johnson
2ND LETTER
Dear Kayla,
This is a letter from your mom before I left earth. Your only 1 years old but soon when your old enough somebody will give this to you and you will understand this. Just know babygirl mommy really did love you. You were a special gift to her life. You look just like me. I hope when you understand this you don't cry or be upset with me. I will be in paradise watching over you. Please grow up and become a successful lawyer doctor or fashion designer. Become something mommy didn't get the chance to be. Don't follow in my footsteps please. I will be watching over you and the rest of the family. And when you become a teenager don't give your daddy a hard time. If your having boy trouble just contact me and I will be down here to help in a hurry. I got ot go babygirl my time is up I love you hun.
Your mother,
Ciara Quay Johnson
3RD LETTER
Dear Jordan,
First let me say I love you forever and always. Before I left you said "just know you mean the world to me Ciara. Even when you do kill me just know JORDAN MARCUS SMITH LOVES YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS" My mom always said the best feeling in the world is knowing how much you mean to somebody. Jordan I want you to give kayla this promise ring when she turns 15. Jordan I love you with everything in me. I didn't leave this earth just for you but I had demons and battles. I was fighting this war but they had the most power and obviously won the war. Jordan don't beat yourself over me please. im not gone anywhere. FOREVER AND ALWAYS meaning just because im not here doesn't mean my love for you isn't either. Im in paradise now. Nobdoy can harm me in any type of way. Jordan when your done being upset over this I want you to find a new set of kids and a new wife and continue to live your life. Get away from the streets and become the full time rapper or the doctor you have always wanted to be. Take care of my baby for me. I don't regret anything I ever done with you because we made something special in the process. Babe I love you with everything in me. Remember when I bought you 11 real roses and 4 fake roses and I said I would love you until the last 4 roses die. Well my times up see you soon. ;)
yours forever and always,
Ciara Quay Johnson SMITH
TAMEKA POV
Ciara made it upstairs before me and when I made it up I heard her lock the door. I knew she wouldn't open up so I sat on the floor for 30 minutes. After the 30 minutes I heard her unlock the door so I got up and opened it up. I saw a pool full of blood and saw Ciara with a gun in her hand lying on the floor lifeless. I screamed.
Tameka- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! CIARA SISSY PLEASE NO
everybody came running up and I heard Zae slam his fist in the wall
Angie- noo not my baby why me god whyyy my baby.
Zae- she left some notes
Zae passed Jordan his note and read the familes note out loud. OG then read kayla's note out loud and Jordan read his. We all were heart broken. She left us. She was battling stuff for a while but hid in with a smile. She had a crooked smile and we never knew it.
