Roller Coaster Kind Of Rush: Sweeran Fanfic

This Drink Is A Liver Killer (chapter 18)

Beer.

This whole crappy thing started with beer.

It was all my fault, and I knew it. I wanted to sob--I wished I could go back and time.

But, no, I couldn't.

Ed had texted me, and when I didn't answer those, he had Direct Messaged me on twitter. I read them.

'Hey, I'm sorry. Can we talk?'

'Please call me! I need to talk to you!'

'Answer me, please. Can I please explain?'

Those melted my heart, but I didn't want to talk to him... What if I messed things up again?

I unfollowed him, so he couldn't Direct Message me anymore. I had changed my number so he couldn't text me anymore.

Talking to him would only make everything worse.

I cried for about a week after it, only tweeting a couple of times...

"I don't see things in flashbacks anymore. I only see things in retrospect."

"So, in retrospect, I guess we moved too fast. And I guess it was good that what happened, happened."

I couldn't stop crying until Abigail, my best friend since high school, showed up at my Nashville apartment. She knew I was bumming and she wanted to make me feel better.

And she did. We did some shopping and we picked out my dress for the Grammy's that was in a few short months. I was so excited for the Grammy's and I'm glad that I picked out my gown with my best friend.

I went back to my house and when Abigail left, I felt lonely. I was having weird thoughts, so I called Selena over. We talked about a lot of things, like Ed and I, and other things, like clothing.

I felt better. Who needed a boyfriend, anyway?

But I still regretted the 'beer incident.'

I absolutely hate beer, I thought.

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Sorry for a very short chapter. This was kinda just Taylor reflecting on the breakup.

And school sucks but whatevs. I wish that fanfics counted as writing for English, y'know? THANKS FOR ALL THE READS!