Roller Coaster Kind Of Rush: Sweeran Fanfic

Stress (chapter 27)

Dear Diary,

It's May 24th. Last time I saw Ed was when he proposed to me. It's been very hard. Somehow we managed. Thank god for FaceTime and texting.

Whenever I feel empty I just stare at my ring and fiddle with it and everything feels better. I know he's feeling the same way I'm feeling: stress, loneliness, anxiousness.

The album is coming together beautifully. I still need to pick out a lead single and stuff but other than that it's going pretty well.

I have a studio session later today. Better leave now.

-Taylor

I closed my diary and tucked it back into my drawer. I usually never kept a diary, or tried to but failed.

But, I thought to myself, this is the time in my life that I'll cherish the most. I want to record how I feel and when I was feeling it.

As I said earlier in my entry, I had a studio session. I grabbed my bag and headed out the door. I had a notebook full of songs that needed to be recorded and see which ones I want to put on the album.

Ed texted me this morning. It said, "hey Taylor. I can't wait until I can see you again. We should plan something. Love you."

I squealed at that and answered, "YESSSS! I have to go to the studio later so we'll have to plan something then. I love you too."

But in 3 months, Ed's tour would be over. Well, in Europe, at least. I hope to have the wedding then. Or maybe a little later, in the winter. That'll be pretty.

I thought of the wedding every single day, every chance I had.

I knew Ed probably wasn't as excited as I was. He was probably going to wear trainers to the wedding, but I didn't even care.

I know he's really excited about having a family, and I am too. But we should wait a little while. Our careers are still blossoming.

A few hours later, I was done recording another song. That one was totally going on the album. It was about Ed and I and the show he proposed at.

I got home at around 3 PM, and called Ed.

"Hello?" His British accent sounded a little weak.

"Hey, it's Taylor."

"Oh, hey!" His voice perked up.

"I love you." I sat down at the table in my dining room and stared at my ring.

"I love you too," he chuckled. "Is that the only reason you called?"

"Yes." I laughed. "Actually, I wanted to plan a day where we can see each other. It's been way too long,"

"I know! It's been like an eternity." Ed replied and sighed.

"So, how about you visit me this time?"

"I have a whole bunch of gigs. It won't do,"

"Oh, how about I visit you?" I said, hopeful.

"Aren't you busy with all your album stuff?"

"It's only May. I decided my album is going to come out in October, so... I have a good 5 more months." I laughed.

"Ah," he sounded really happy, "So I'll see you then?!"

"Yep!" I grinned.

"I love you." He whispered into the phone, barely loud enough for me to hear him.

"I love you too." I said back. We didn't hang up for awhile. Eventually I heard the click of the phone hanging up. I hung up as well.

I started packing for Europe.

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Hi! So, as you probably know, this fanfic is going to end soon. (About 3 or 4 more chapters.) But, I'm thinking of doing another one? How does that sound??

And I'm sorry for such a long wait. I had so much homework and I got my braces off yesterday. (!!!) I love you and enjoy this chapter.