Say Goodbye (A Chris Brown Love Story)

Chapter Fifteen

"Mimi, hello? Am I going to daycare today?" Dani waved her hand in front of my face.

"Dani, go away. I don't want to be bothered." I grumbled, pulling the blanket over my head. I didn't want to get up or do anything, everything just hurt too much. My heart hurt the most though. How could he tell me not to be sad that he's gone? Of course I'm gonna be sad! The love of my life is gone! And the worst part is, I never got to tell him about the baby. Why! Why did I have to be such a big coward and not tell him?! He deserved to know!

I have already missed 3 days of school because I've been so depressed, but I should get up and go today. Chris would want me to, he told me to move on but I don't think I can. Actually, I know I can't. Because Chris stole my heart...and he still has it.

"Dani!" I called, sitting up in bed. She immediately ran into the room.

"Yes?" She hopped up on the bed.

"Go get dressed, you're going to daycare." I said.
"Yay!" She jumped around on the bed and then jumped off, bolting out the room. I've got to pull myself together for Dani and I couldn't stress myself out because that would be bad for the baby.

I took a shower and put some clothes on, then combed my hair back. My comb caught the chain of my necklace and I stared at it in the mirror, remembering when Chris had bugged out when Rodrick gave me that bracelet. I thought that was sweet because that meant he was jealous.

After I finished getting ready, I picked up my bag and headed downstairs to find Daniella at the garage door waiting for me. Chris's keys were still in the counter and I picked them up, heading into the garage. I just wanted to drive his car, even though I probably shouldn't because that will just make me think about him more. And that's the total opposite of what I should be doing. But how could I not think about him? How can you not think about your only boyfriend who you love more than anyone or anything in the whole world? That's pretty hard if you ask me.

Dani got in her car seat and I got in the front, putting the keys in the ignition and cranking up the car. I saw Chris's leather jacket in the passenger seat and quickly grabbed it. I can't believe he left it, he loved this thing to death. His scent was so strong on the jacket, it made my eyes fill with tears. I missed him so much, I just wanted to die. But I can't do that, Dani needs me and so does my baby. I put the jacket on and zipped it up, it was much too big for me but I didn't care. It was Chris's and it meant something to me.

I dropped Dani off at daycare and headed to school. Maybe school would take my mind off Chris although I know that's not gonna happen. He was permanently burned into my head, his sweet smile and adorable freckles. I felt so alone without him. Hayden was sitting on the front steps of the school when I finally got there. I got out the car and walked up to her.

"Mariah!" She jumped up and ran up to me, throwing her arms around me. "Where have you been, has the baby been hard on you?" She asked.

"No." I could already feel the tears coming. "It's Chris."

"So you told him? How did he take it?"

"No, I didn't tell him. Hayden, Chris is gone."

"Huh? What do you mean he's gone?" I started to cry and collapsed in her arms. She pulled me back to the car and we both got in.

"Tell me what happened." She said.

"Everything was going great, we were happily in love and everything. But then one day I came home with Daniella and...and there was a note." I reached into my bag and pulled out the folded up note. I had kept it with me ever since I found it. I watched Hayden eyes dart back and forth as she read it then she sat back and looked at me when she finished.